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The New China Syndrome

Thursday, May 14th, 2009

Our Creditors Will Now Sell us Cars

Being a conservative is usually a great blessing, because we’re right about nearly everything. But it’s frustrating when we’re right about things the rest of the country did not see coming. Case in point: the Chinese are about to invade our automobile market. Who has been warning about this for ages? Me. Backward little Bible-clinging, meat-eating, non-recycling pistol-carrier that I am. I’m sure other conservatives have said the same thing. You can’t walk down the aisles in Home Depot every week and see row after row of inexpensive, quality Chinese-made tools and not realize Chinese cars are inevitable. You’d have to be remarkably stupid.

Drudgebart links to a story about it today. I figured the Chinese would attack directly and independently. But it’s even worse than that. GM is going to give the market to them! I thought future competition was what we had to worry about, but GM is capitulating before that has a chance to happen. They’re going to import Chinese cars!

The union is angry. Who cares? They were dying anyway. They had no chance whatsoever of remaining viable. Unions are parasitic, and one of the essential properties of a successful parasite is that it can’t kill the host while the host still serves a need. The UAW has never understood this. You can maintain a union like the one at UPS, because they don’t get five times what they’re worth. They permit UPS to make a profit, so UPS stays in business. You can’t maintain a union that causes a company to run at a deficit.

If a tick sucked a quart of blood a day, ticks would be extinct. Isn’t that obvious?

Autoworkers and workers in related industries are going to earn less money from now on, because of a troublesome little thing called supply and demand. They’ve managed to fight it successfully for over 50 years, but it always wins in the end. Ten years from now, you won’t see typical American autoworkers in nice houses with five vehicles. That was an unsustainable aberration.

Here’s a quotation:

“GM should not be taking taxpayers’ money simply to finance the outsourcing of jobs to other countries,” Alan Reuther, the union’s Washington lobbyist, wrote in a letter to U.S. lawmakers.

That’s true, I guess. On the other hand, the government shouldn’t be forcing taxpayers to invest in a company that union labor will eventually kill (or any company, for that matter). Okay, union labor isn’t the only problem. Let’s be fair and admit that GM also has problems because of bad management. That’s especially true now that Barack Obama is the CEO. It’s interesting, if you think about it. This is his first real job. GM is Barack Obama’s lemonade stand!

The story implies GM is SHOCKED that anyone would think they would move manufacturing to China, and they love the unions, and the percentage of cars sold here that will be made in China will be limited…blah, blah, blah. I’ve heard this kind of BS before. “Social Security numbers will only be used in the management of government benefits.” “The income tax will only be in place long enough to pay our war debts.” “None of the money from the state lottery will go to anything but education.”

“You’re the third man I’ve ever slept with.” “Don’t worry, I had a vasectomy.” “My breasts are real.” “I’ll limit myself to public campaign funds.” “My administration will be totally transparent.”

Some lies are so pathetic, on their faces, that no one should ever believe them unless somebody posts a bond.

It’s possible that cars will be made here. IF the wage drops to maybe fifteen bucks an hour. Otherwise, forget it.

Proponents of the pitiable, obnoxious, ludicrous, conceited America-as-master-race theory think the Chinese are hopelessly incompetent. I guess these folks have no idea which nationalities do best in engineering and science. Here’s a clue. When I applied for graduate study in physics, I was told I had an advantage because I was not Chinese. Universities were tired of cluttering their departments with Chinese students. Americans are not better, smarter, more talented, or more industrious. There is nothing special about us, and it is remarkable that Asians have done so poorly up to this point. Like the union thing, it’s an aberration. It’s unnatural. It is a situation that will eventually right itself.

American produced Henry Ford. It also produced the Ayn-Rand-vindicating degenerates who succeeded him. Now China has its own Henry Ford; a battery manufacturer who crushed Sony and who has now set his sights on the Big Three and Toyota. People like that are raised up by God. They don’t occur naturally, and they don’t lift themselves up by their own bootstraps, no matter what their egos tell them. We have had our share of giants, but now they’re popping up abroad, and our supply seems to be running dry. I’d trade twenty sets of Google kids for one Wang Chuan-Fu. In fact, I’d trade the actual Google kids for a good cigar.

We used to have Presidents who built and nurtured and encouraged. Now we have a spoiled, tyrannical boy who cannibalizes and reallocates and salvages and jettisons. A downsizer masquerading as a builder. Like an engineer on a battleship that has been torpedoed, he moves assets around in a vain effort to keep us (and himself) afloat.

Perry Stone thinks the US may have come to the end of its God-given run as the dominant nation in the world. The more time passes, the more I think he’s right. I think from now on, the country will wane, but individual Americans who align themselves with God’s will are going to be blessed.

Nobody wants to hear that. They want to hear “USA! USA!” while they chant along and crush Budweiser cans against their foreheads. But everything we have came from God, not from ourselves. We worked and planned and planted, but human effort is pointless unless it is also blessed.

I think the only way for an American to rise above the developing chaos is to turn back to God. I think God pounded that into my thick skull over the last few years, and I hope I can help other people reach the same conclusion.

More Weird Tales From the Religious Kook

Tuesday, May 12th, 2009

Ignore Him and He’ll Go Away

Apparent coincidence is one of the hallmarks of effective Christian living. The deeper you get into your faith, and the more trust you put in God, the more weird things happen.

Here are a couple new ones, from my life.

Last week, I got an email from a guy who sells machine tools. I ignored it, because I figured I was being spammed. Also, he had a Millrite listed for over two thousand dollars, which suggested his prices were not too good. I didn’t realize a regular reader of this blog knew this guy, and he had told him about me.

Later on, I got on Ebay, looking for a 4-jaw lathe chuck. I needed an L00 mount, and I needed an 8″ chuck. This is the usual size for a 12″ lathe, which is what I have. A seller had an unused (new old stock) Skinner chuck from a 13″ South Bend, and he also had a back plate. We negotiated, and I bought the parts. I got a good deal, and I didn’t have to buy Asian or used. Guess who the seller is? The guy who emailed me. Out of the hundreds or thousands of people on Ebay selling machine tool parts and tooling, I found him.

What does it mean? I don’t know. It must mean something. It’s not a small coincidence. Many, many people sell lathe chucks on Ebay.

Second story. Last week, I received two self-defense DVDs from Gunvideo.com. Looks like good stuff. But I didn’t order it! Some guy named Ray did. His name was on the invoice. I figured someone who meant well had taken the kind but somewhat creepy step of finding out my real name and where I lived, and that he had sent me the DVDs as a present. Either that, or it was a gay stalker.

I decided to email the people at Gunvideo. They said there was a screwup. I had ordered something from them a year ago, and this Ray person owned the company that produced it. They had it drop-shipped to me from his company. Then recently he ordered something from them, and somehow my address ended up in the ship-to box. They said they’re still trying to figure it out. But they told me to keep the DVDs.

I keep feeling like I’m supposed to have guns and tools. I can’t figure it out. I wonder what’s on those DVDs.

When you’re a Christian and you live by faith, your life becomes like the Bible. Almost everything in it has meaning. It makes it harder to be disappointed or rattled or angry. When something goes wrong, instead of getting mad, you think, “There must be a reason for this. I wonder what it is.” And you look forward to finding out, which usually happens.

This is often extremely irritating to non-Christians, even though there is nothing aggressive or inherently provocative about it. It should elicit no negative response whatsoever. Why should it anger you that another person takes misfortune well? Marcus Aurelius found the complacency of Christian martyrs annoying, and he increased their suffering because of it. Why is it so aggravating to non-believers? I would say, but that would aggravate them even more. Most Christians know; I don’t have to tell them.

Christianity is funny. It looks better from inside than outside. Even backslidden Christians who should remember how rewarding it is tend to forget, and they dread returning. I was there; I know.

UPS and Downs

Tuesday, May 12th, 2009

Motor Headed Back to Kansas

Mish Weiss is in a bad state, as should be expected after a bone marrow transplant. I’m hoping this one works better than the last one. You would think marrow from a daughter would be more likely to take hold than marrow from a stranger. It’s comforting to believe, whether or not it’s true. She appreciates all prayers and comments.

I hope some of you will do me a favor and remember my cousin Debbie today. Her cancer involves her brain as well as her lungs. It amazes me, how many people in my family smoke. I can understand the older ones getting caught up in it, because the link between smoking and cancer wasn’t recognized by the US government until 1964. But why did the younger ones start?

Human beings are not driven primarily by reason. If we were, Barack Obama wouldn’t be President, and it would be impossible to get anyone to buy heroin. You would think that intelligence would make us happier and healthier than other creatures, but it hasn’t worked out that way. Intelligence is overrated; I’ve always said so. An ounce of character is worth a ton of intelligence. I’m smart, and I’ve done so many stupid things, I could never hope to remember a tenth of them.

Maybe I shouldn’t write about my lathe problems after saying a thing like that, but I will.

UPS, in its wisdom, sent my damaged motor back to Kansas. They provided no explanation. I have no idea whether they’re paying the seller anything toward the damage. It will be at least a week before I get a replacement.

Yesterday the new VFD arrived. I wired it up and held my breath, wondering if I might accidentally come up with a new way to destroy VFDs. I connected it to the ancient motor the lathe seller sent me, and it ran. Thank God. Literally.

When this motor arrived, it made a bonking sound when the shaft rotated, but now it’s quieter. I don’t know why. The shaft is still a mess, so it’s not possible to align the pulleys well. But the motor works. I’m thinking I should shove it into the lathe cabinet and use it until the Baldor arrives. I could rig it up without conduit for now, in order to make the Baldor installation easier.

If I could get the shaft out, I could use the lathe to take off the shaft burrs that make the pulleys sit at an angle. But I’d need a working motor to do that. I have a single-phase motor I could use, but to do that, I’d need to connect the drum switch. That would be a giant pain. I’ve stripped and degreased the drum switch, in preparation for wiring it to the VFD logic inputs. Besides, I’m sure the motor’s shaft is permanently attached to the rotor or stator or whatever the big thing covered with windings is. You could never mount that in a lathe chuck, unless the lathe was the size of a house.

I suppose a real genius would mount the motor on something solid and use it as a lathe. The shaft would turn, so it would be possible to apply a tool to it. But you’d have to have something solid to mount the tool on, and I think you can see what a Rube Goldberg mess it would be. If I were stranded somewhere and I had to fix the shaft in order to save my life, I’d give it a try, but as it is, it looks like a very bad idea.

I think I have enough crap now–here and in shipment–to use the lathe. I went crazy and sprung for Moly-Dee instead of cheap cutting fluid. The machinery snobs at PM seem to think Tap Magic is only fit for amateurs; they like Accu-lube (nearly impossible to find) and Moly-Dee (expensive). How often am I going to buy fluid? Once a year? I think buying the good stuff is a reasonable expense. I’m also going to get a gallon can of WD-40 for cutting aluminum. They have it at Home Depot.

I Ebayed a used 1/2″ 4-flute center-cutting carbide end mill. I might be able to rig the lathe up so I can use this to trim down the base for my quick change tool post. If not, it’s still a good cutter to have, and I think the total cost is ten bucks. I figured out how to put Enco’s 80-grit aluminum oxide wheels on my half-inch grinder arbors, so I have one of those on the way. I also got a silicon carbide dressing stick. I was not able to get a star-type dresser from Enco, and I didn’t feel like looking elsewhere and paying a big shipping fee for a four-dollar item.

I need some metal to train on. I’ve been watching Craigslist for scrap, but the one promising ad I saw did not produce a return phone call or email. I may have to drive to a metal dealer and pay up. I think I’ll get a couple of feet of bronze, some T6 aluminum, and some leaded steel. With WD-40 on hand, I can work aluminum right now.

What will I do? Don’t know. I guess I’ll start by chucking some aluminum and trying each type of tool, to see how everything works. I have a Clausing manual, but like most manuals for professional tools, it doesn’t tell you how to use the tool. It just tells you where the controls are. I plan to do what I used to do in my old science labs. I’ll make sequential lists of the things I need to do, in order to perform various operations. Then I’ll laminate them and put them near the lathe. This approach is a godsend for absent-minded people. If I had done this when I wired up the first VFD, it would still be working. I ruined that thing simply because I did not accommodate my known failings. The lesson was worth the expense. If you make a dumb mistake while running a lathe, it can mess you up good. A big lathe can roll your arm up like a bedroll, snapping the bones as required. I don’t know if this one can do that, but it can fire a chuck at me at great speed. This lathe should be pretty powerful. I’m using the biggest motor Clausing recommends, and I don’t have the vari-speed drive to sink horsepower. It’s just two belts and a gear or two.

I should make a list of operations I’ll do in order to train myself. That will simplify things and give me direction.

Lists are powerful things, if you have the character to make them and use them. Guess I’m looping now, so I’ll close.

Mother’s Day Suggestion

Sunday, May 10th, 2009

Don’t Feel Left Out

What do you do on Mother’s Day if your mother has passed on?

Here’s a suggestion. Make a donation to Care-Net. They provide counseling, prenatal tests, material assistance, and other types of help to pregnant women in crisis.

Planned Parenthood puts the vast majority of its resources in minority neighborhoods, in a highly successful continuation of the genocidal policies of its twisted founder, Margaret Sanger. Planned Parenthood is the answer to unwanted children, provided you understand that the term “unwanted” refers mainly to the way Planned Parenthood’s overwhelmingly white supporters feel about minority babies. Thanks to them, 60% of black babies are killed before birth. It has proven much cheaper and more effective than lynching adults.

Care-Net is the Christian response. Aborting a baby is fast, cheap, and easy, and it takes no courage. Carrying it and raising it require guts and perseverance. Care-Net helps women stick it out.

I can’t go back in time and improve on the way I treated my mother, but thanks to charities like Care-Net, I can make some effort to acknowledge my debt, by helping other people’s mothers. If your mother, like mine, is no longer here for you to bless, maybe Care-Net can help you, too.

Needs Met

Sunday, May 10th, 2009

Tools Provided

I guess I’ve solved the 4-jaw chuck problem. I bought the Ebay Skinner chuck I mentioned yesterday. It’s expensive, but the cost is about the same as a Chinese chuck plus a Bison plate, and if I bought that combination, I’d have to do some machining to make it fit. I think. And in the end, it wouldn’t be as good. A new Bison with an L00 mount is about $660, and it’s not an American-made chuck like the one I got. Hopefully I did okay. I also got an 11″ faceplate with lots of slots. I guess I’ll need a drive dog. I think this will cover the basic tooling. Some day I guess I’ll need to be able to use collets and end mills, and I may need a taper attachment. But I think I have enough junk to make the lathe work.

I mean it will work once the motor is installed! Man, that’s frustrating. This week, UPS will be looking at the one that was shipped to me, to try to find a way to weasel out of paying for the broken conduit box. I was a fool to report the damage. For $35, I could have had a new box. I shouldn’t have to pay it, but sometimes the smart thing is to give up. I got a $750 motor for about 85% off. Another thirty-three bucks would not kill me.

I’m sure this is exactly what UPS is hoping customers will say after making their first damage claim. The point of the process, in all likelihood, is not to improve customer relations. It’s to punish customers for reporting damage, so they never do it again.

That’s probably the intended consequence, but here is what the actual result will be. I always use Fedex or the post office when I ship things. UPS’s damage policy has reinforced my preference.

I’ve had one problem with Fedex in all the times I’ve used them, and it was a minor one. I also had a damaged package. I don’t count that as a problem, because Fedex came to the door and took it back, and they brought a new package, and that was the end of it.

UPS has been unionized for a long time, and Fedex has a long, proud history of resisting unions. Maybe there’s a connection.

Church was pretty good last night. My sister wants a church where they talk more about ideas she considers advanced, but I find that I need plenty of help just mastering the fundamentals, so it doesn’t bother me at all when a sermon deals with basic things. I want a sturdy foundation before I worry about parapets and balconies. Maybe different people have different needs. I should also add that the old familiar sensation of God’s presence was there. At one point we were all standing, and I was trying to pray and so on, and the sensation became so strong, words stopped forming in my mind. I had to stop and feel it.

I had been feeling somewhat discouraged. I didn’t do much to promote the cookbook, because I changed so much during the time when it was rolling out, and while sales are not embarrassing, they are not what I hoped they would be. There were things in there that I wish I hadn’t written, so my drive to promote the book was not what it could have been. I have been looking for guidance about what I should do. I would like to use my writing in a positive way, but nothing has come to me so far. I don’t want to practice law; it’s a minefield of temptation. Lawyers spend half their time rationalizing their questionable actions, and when you’re surrounded by people who do that every day, you tend to absorb their mindset. I suppose I could do arbitration and mediation without sinking too deeply into the slime. I don’t want to wake up one day and realize I’ve turned into a parasitic fomenter of litigation.

Yesterday, the pastor and his wife talked about standing in faith. Holding on until you get what you’re supposed to. And although it was a simple message, it hit home. I needed to hear it. God promises us all sorts of stuff, but he also says you can’t expect to receive any of it unless you ask in faith and remain steadfast. I knew that already; I’ve had so many prayers answered after sticking to my guns, you would think it would be a habit by now.

I don’t have financial problems, and I don’t see much danger of problems any time soon. But I would like to be doing something productive. After the book came out and the promotion tapered off, I found myself without a project. Because of the things I heard last night in church, I won’t be worried about that any more. Something is going to happen.

In that vein (I guess it’s appropriate to use an anatomical term), Mish Weiss just had something happen. Her long-lost daughter insisted on donating bone marrow for a transplant. The procedure took place today. Mish is in very bad shape, which is normal under the circumstances. Over the next few weeks, the marrow will have to take root, so to speak, and grow in her body. I hope you’ll pray for Mish’s recovery, and that she will succeed in forming a strong and satisfying bond with God.

I think this may be her reward for carrying her daughter to term. It’s so much like the stories you see in the Bible. People planted seeds, and they came back to bless the world. Think of the births of Samuel, Jesus, John the Baptist, Moses, and Samson. My mother always told me that this was what the Bible meant when it said, “Cast your bread upon the water, for after many days ye shall find it again.”

Mike just called. He and his son are going to a church recommended to him by the pastor at my church. They’re walking in right now. That’s exciting. I’ve never gotten anyone else to go to church. I hope they find something they can hold onto and build on.

Any Fool Can Buy Drill Bits

Wednesday, May 6th, 2009

Right?

First things first.

Mish Weiss is feeling very weak because they are giving her increased radiation and chemotherapy, in preparation for her second bone marrow transplant. I wrote about this a few days ago. When Mish was in her teens, she gave a daughter up for adoption, and now that daughter insists on donating marrow. Please pray that Mish will be strengthened, and that the transplant will cure her leukemia.

I posted a prayer request about my cousin, who has been diagnosed with 4th-stage lung cancer. People wanted a name. I didn’t put it up at first, because I had concerns about revealing details of her life. But what I have written is pretty spare, so I guess it’s okay. Her name is Debbie. Thanks for helping. I need recommendations for soothing and uplifting Christian music to put in the MP3 player my sister and I bought for her.

I could use a little prayer myself. I have been having real trouble getting back to my routine of retiring and rising early, so I can give the first hour or so of the day to God. Things keep coming up, disrupting my schedule. Any help would be appreciated.

Some people say it doesn’t matter when you pray, but I think that’s wrong. The Bible is full of references to rising early, and the fifth psalm says, “My voice shalt thou hear in the morning, O Lord; in the morning will I direct my prayer unto thee and will look up.” The sixty-third psalm says, “O God, thou are my god. Early will I seek thee.” I think beginning the day with God is like prenatal care; it puts a good foundation under things. And it gives you a jump on your enemies. It’s a little like rolling up your car windows and locking your doors before you drive through a rough neighborhood.

This is an exciting day, by my peculiar standards. The new lathe motor should arrive soon, and I am just about ready to hook it up. The VFD is mounted on the lathe headstock. All I have to do is put the lathe in, attach the belt, and run some wires. It should run like a dream, with that shiny new Baldor.

On Monday I made a plate to hold the VFD, but I was not happy with it, because the paint I bought for it turned out to be so shiny you could actually mistake a painted surface for bare aluminum. I decided to get out my old standby: black truck bed paint. I used my bench grinder to fine-tune the plate so it would fit around the drum switch bracket on the back of the headstock, I scraped the paint away from the bolt holes to assure a good ground connection between the VFD and the lathe, and I sprayed it down. It looks okay, but I am wondering if I now have to worry about heat. The old paint was thin and conducted heat well. This new stuff is a layer of plastic, and the VFD heat sink is pressed right into it. Hopefully the fan and sink included with the VFD are sufficient. Otherwise I’m going to go get a piece of aluminum and make a new plate from that. It will conduct both heat and electricity, and it’s easy to work. I still have to attach conduit and so on, and that means drilling holes. Not fun, in a hard piece of sheet steel.

The old wiring was protected by some strange kind of smooth-surfaced flex conduit. I don’t know what it is. Maybe all plastic flex conduit looks like this. I never use it. How would I know? I don’t have anything like that, and I don’t want to buy a whole box just for this. I guess I’ll use the same metallic flex conduit I used for the compressor.

The lathe has a big push-button switch way down on one pillar (or whatever you call the two parts that make up the cabinet). I assume it’s supposed to be some sort of safety shutoff. It looks awful, and it doesn’t seem to do anything, and it’s in a bad spot. I think I’ll yank it and put it in the trash. I have an emergency disconnect on the wall already. I think the disconnect is probably useless. By the time you get to it, whatever will happen has happened. The VFD’s braking is probably a better answer. It’s too bad this machine has no mechanical brake.

I have been watching my Lathe Learnin’ DVDs. A day or two ago, I learned something interesting. You don’t always have to use a big 4-jaw chuck to get optimal accuracy. You can put a small 4-jaw chuck in your existing 3-jaw chuck. Pretty wild. I’m considering getting a relatively cheap 4-jaw chuck for this purpose. Even if I get a bigger one later, this would be very quick and easy, and it would probably hold 95% of the things I’ll want to work on.

I learned something good last night. You can use a milling machine to do layout. You ink your part, put it in your vise, and use edgefinders or whatever to get you situated. Then you use your DRO or handwheels to put marks where you need them. To make the marks, you put a drill chuck in the mill, and you insert a spring-loaded scribe. You lower the point to the work and move the table to make the scratches.

Clearly, this would justify me spending fifteen thousand dollars on a new Bridgeport.

Maybe not.

But it’s still neat.

The guy from Swarfrat says you can do layout on a PC, print it out, and glue the paper to your work using 3M somthing or other 77 spray adhesive. He says it will be accurate to within a thousandth. His videos are excellent. I feel guilty about renting them, even though it’s legal. I’m planning to buy some of his materials, to support what he does.

I have been trying to choose drill bits. Believe it or not, this is complicated. Apparently, there are about 115 bits in a complete 1/16″-1/2″ set. Some sets have 114 or 118, but 115 is the number I keep seeing. And you have to make a lot of choices.

First off, you have to choose the length. I think I’m going to get short screw machine (or “stub”) bits. They take up less room on your machines, and they’re rigid, and they are more than long enough for most jobs. But you can also get mechanic’s length (longer) or jobber length (longer still). What is a “jobber”? No idea.

Second, you have to choose the material. Cobalt is expensive, but it lasts longer than high speed steel, and you can cut harder stuff with it. You can sharpen it on a plain old grinder. But the gaps between the flutes are smaller, so it may not clear chips as well. High speed steel is cheap and good, but it will get dull quickly if you drill anything hard.

On top of that, there are different finishes. I bought some Hitachi bits coated with titanium nitride (TiN), and as far as I can tell, the finish is completely worthless. The drills dull almost instantly when used on hard metal. But others assure me that quality TiN-coated bits are more slippery than HSS, and that you can run them faster, and that TiN resists wear. I don’t see how it can resist wear once you’ve used the drill, because the finish comes off the tip in a hurry, and the tip is where the action is. But people pay for it, so there must be a reason for it. I wouldn’t buy it again. It may well be that my Hitachi bits are actually Chinese, so I would not judge TiN by their performance.

Third, there are different tip styles. You can get them in 118-degree or 135-degree styles, and you can get split points. I’ve seen photos of these, and I didn’t see anything that looked like a split, but okay, whatever. They’re supposed to walk less when you start holes.

Once you get past all that, you have to make a decision on how to sharpen them. The old-fashioned way is to use a grinder and a little gauge and eyeball them. I am trying to get out of the habit of doing things the hard way, so I considered getting a sharpening machine instead. The only one available at a price I am willing to pay is the Drill Doctor. Is it a good machine? It’s fantastic. Or it’s complete garbage. Everyone you ask tells a different story. Aargh. I guess the smart thing is to get a gauge and see what happens. I’ve sharpened drills in the past, but that was out of laziness and desperation, and I had no idea what I was doing. I don’t know if I want to keep doing it without a special tool.

Can you believe how hard it is to buy drill bits? I never imagined. And what if I need different lengths later on? I’ll have to repeat the entire expense.

I got a cobalt bit the other day, and I am really impressed. It seemed completely unintimidated by the steel plate I drilled. Maybe that just shows how sad my other bits are. I’m considering splurging on a set of US-made cobalt bits. Hard to decide. It’s about $100 for HSS and $300 for cobalt. Lots of money, either way.

The grinder is also a headache. It’s a wonderful machine; a 6″ Baldor that runs at 1800 RPM. But the wheels it came with are apparently intended to be a practical joke. They’re 36 and 60 grit, in silicon carbide. Not much good for anything other than shaping metal and sharpening coarse tools like hoes. I have to get aluminum oxide in 80 grit, and of course, most wheels fitting that description don’t fit my arbors. Enco’s wheel page says to use their “universal arbor adapter,” which is NOT IN THE CATALOG. However I’m pretty sure the items they sell under the heading “bushings” are actually adapters, so I’m buying one, as well as a wheel. A real man would turn an adapter in his lathe! Where are the real men when you need them?

I’ll need the grinder when I want to make HSS lathe tools. How do you do that? Well, you buy a $5000 milling machine and a face shield, remove the eye shields from your grinder, remove the highly risible tool supports, make a fancy-shmancy adjustable tool table that goes in front of the wheels (including an adjustable protractor), and you check the material you’re working, and you refer to a giant chart of appropriate angles, and you grind your tool. OR you stand in front of a bare grinder wheel and ram the blank into it, and you make every single angle either 10 or 15 degrees. The first method is the Rudy Kouhoupt method (from his DVD), and the second one is the Lathe Learnin’ method. The guy in the Lathe Learnin’ video says his tools work just fine for him. If he can get away with it, I guess I should try it, too. I really don’t want to turn this into precision machining if I don’t have to. I don’t want to turn the tool into the workpiece.

I think the more you study this stuff, the harder your life gets. If you just plug your machine in and get to work, you probably learn all the things you need to know reasonably fast, and I’m sure a lot of the things I’m learning have more to do with anal retention than practicality.

This is the story of my day so far.

Harvest Time

Monday, May 4th, 2009

Match Made in Heaven

If you’ve been following Mish Weiss’s story, you know she had a daughter when she was a teenager. She made the right choice, letting her daughter live and giving her up for adoption. Recently, Mish found her.

Mish is in bad shape. Her leukemia is getting worse. But there is a glimmer of hope. There is a possibility that a bone marrow transplant will save her, and it turns out her daughter, Abby, is a match. Mish told her not to bother; she thought it would be a lot of pain for nothing. But this girl insisted. So on Sunday, Mish gets the transplant! There are no guarantees that it will work, but it’s a chance Mish would never have gotten, but for the existence of Abby.

How about that? Mish sacrificed to bring Abby into this world; now Abby is sacrificing to help Mish stay here. There is now way Mish could have known, all those years ago, that she was carrying someone who would return to save her. The only reward she expected was freedom from the sin of taking the life of her child.

Makes you wonder what miracles our abortion industry has prevented.

Rahm Emanuel: CAPO

Monday, May 4th, 2009

The Gloves are Off

I just read this unbelievable quotation in the Jerusalem Post, via Drudge:

Thwarting Iran’s nuclear program is conditional on progress in peace negotiations between Israel and the Palestinians, according to White House Chief of Staff Rahm Emanuel.

SINCE WHEN DID OPPOSING EVIL REQUIRE AN ADDITIONAL INCENTIVE?

Obama is so stupid and conceited he seriously believes the Iranians will bow to the synthetic Messiah. That’s the only explanation. That, and anti-Semitism. How can he not realize Iran is a threat to all humanity? Is he so determined to spite Israel that he’ll give Iran the tools to start a worldwide conflagration? Thank you, Jeremiah Wright. Job well done.

I have to ask it again: when will American Jews learn who their real friends are? When was the last time you heard a leftist pundit express concern about Israel’s security? It never happens. But conservatives voice their outrage every day!

Show Rahm what you think of him. Donate money to the International Fellowship of Christians and Jews, in his name. They’ll use it to do things that would make him retch up his tofu.

It’s a pity they only accept dollars. I’d like to send thirty pieces of silver.

Don’t even try to tell me this disgraceful President is not the manifestation of a curse.

Prayer Request: Lung Cancer

Monday, May 4th, 2009

Help us Out

My third cousin has been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. I would appreciate it if people who read this site would pray for her physical health and also for her mental health. I don’t want to go into details, but this is a truly delightful person whose life had been utterly blighted even before this diagnosis. I just wish God would give her a blessing what would somehow make her whole and constitute a redemption.

Terrific Nation

Sunday, May 3rd, 2009

Three Cheers for the Invincible Master Race

I have been thinking about the Chrysler mess for a couple of days, and two obvious questions come up.

1. Shouldn’t people be angry that Bush and Obama gave these incompetents billions of dollars, knowing it was a complete waste? I knew it, and I’m not even President. And so did tens of millions of other Americans. But the press’s reaction is barely audible.

2. Doesn’t this prove that conservatives were right when we said the failure of a Big Three company would not kill the economy, and if that is true, isn’t bailing the automakers out a stupid idea? Shouldn’t we cease all efforts to keep these parasitic, terminally ill companies going?

We were told (by Bush as well as Obama) that we had to keep the Big Three alive, because a failure would have ripple effects that would destroy our economy. Chrysler has failed, and the stock market is up, and nobody is rioting in the streets. Hmm…looks like the socialists were WRONG, doesn’t it? A lot of businessmen are actually happy that Chrysler is going bankrupt. It’s the normal, healthy thing for a failed company to do.

Why did Bush do this? McCain was already dead; it couldn’t help him. The bailout was approved after the election. What possible reason could Bush have had to become an eleventh-hour socialist? The man is not stupid. Surely he didn’t think this would work. Doesn’t he have any faith in the free market?

I guess there are no capitalists in foxholes. When times get rough, politicians pray to their true messiah. Karl Marx.

This is all foolishness. The incompetence and obsolescence of the Big Three are only one part of the problem, and they are far and away the lesser part. The Chinese are going to eat our car industry. Accept it. Let’s let the Big Three die in the cheapest possible way, because it’s foreordained. There are two possibilities. America will not make cars, or we will pay our auto workers so little we can compete with China. There is no third choice, and the second choice is pretty unlikely. Actually, the third choice is a never-ending subsidy that bleeds us dry, but I believe that even Obama is smart enough to see that that won’t fly. Besides, he has the heart of a tyrant, and he didn’t like the way the UAW refused to toe the line.

What we are doing right now is not investment. It’s welfare. We are not going to get our money back from the carmakers, because they’re not going to make a profit. We’re just enabling them. Keeping them alive a little longer. Delaying a constructive move toward redeployment of their work force in industries that have some hope of prospering.

I have a prediction about Obama’s choice to replace Ruth Ginsberg. It’s going to be someone so offensive to conservatives that we will utterly stunned, and whoever it is, she will be confirmed. We are going to have to drink our own bathwater one more time. But for the fact that a woman has to get the job, I’d predict Laurence Tribe or Alan Dershowitz. If Hillary Clinton were not busy already, I’d expect her to be on the list. Maybe it will be someone from the Ninth Circuit. They have three female judges. They’re all white, however, so maybe they aren’t strong candidates. I’m glad Rosie O’Donnell doesn’t have a law degree.

I feel certain it will be a God-hating idiot of such colossal stature that conservatives will vomit for at least a month. We are going to miss Ruth Ginsberg. America is rotting from within, like a cancer patient, and the new associate justice will be part of the rot. Just like the illegal aliens who are becoming more and more powerful, even obtaining the right to vote. Our enemies are crawling inside us to gestate and metastasize, because our walls are down.

Why do I say Obama is going to appoint someone awful? Because America has lost its blessing. Discarded it, in fact. Obama is a divine punishment, and so are his appointees.

I have this strange feeling that our judiciary is going to go to hell, but we will somehow retain our gun rights. So many Christians are getting into shooting; I think there has to be a reason for it, and it wouldn’t make sense, if we were going to lose our guns in the near future.

I also think the Chinese are going to gain such a military advantage over us that we will be helpless before them when we finally have a showdown. They’ve infiltrated our military technology, and they are already able to destroy our vital military satellites in a single day, and Obama has announced that he plans to kill weapons R&D as well as the missile shield. Even Carter was smarter than that.

I see it this way: America is in trouble; Christians within America are not. And Israel will survive without us, because her blessing, unlike ours, is eternal. We’re probably going to shrivel into insignificance and chaos, but Israel is going to survive and grow closer to God. I suspect that Iran is going to get nuclear weapons soon, and that Obama will prevent the Israelis from doing anything about it. And maybe Iran will use them. But in the end, whatever her trials may be, Israel will prevail.

People keep saying we’re going to pull out or our tailspin, because we’ve always recovered in the past. But the past was different. We were not as proud and decadent, and we didn’t have powerful, wealthy enemies whose strength was on the rise. The Nazis were creampuffs compared to China, India, and Russia. The Third Reich had no legs. Neither did the USSR or the 20th-century Chicoms. Our new enemies have capitalist engines driving them, and they have inexhaustible manpower and natural resources. All we have is an idiotic, offensive presumption that Americans are the master race. I guess the Jews felt the same way, right before the Babylonians crushed them. We didn’t make America great; human beings don’t have the power to do things like that. But we do have the power to destroy her.

I know I sound like a pessimist, but that only applies to my country. I’m extremely optimistic for myself and my family. Besides, the prophets were generally pessimists, so I’m in good company. It’s funny, but God never raises up a voice to tell a nation that everything they’re doing is just swell. If God were a parent in an SUV, and he had a rotten kid who was too lazy to get good grades and an honor roll bumper sticker, he wouldn’t have one of those ridiculous consolation-prize “Terrific Kid” stickers on his bumper, to pump up the little brat’s self-esteem. He tells it like it is, and I don’t think he really cares if we have low self-esteem. If anything, he is displeased when we have too much.

Celebrity Sighting

Saturday, May 2nd, 2009

Fredo Fished in the Wrong Spot

I want to thank the enabler who mentioned the 200-lumen flashlights Home Depot is selling. On the way home from church, I bought one for me and one for my dad. I hope you’re pleased with yourself.

Church was really good. The pastor seemed completely lost at first. He was talking about the Beatles and celebrities and so on, and I figured, “He didn’t prepare this week, and he’s winging it.” But toward the end, he drew it together. The theme was people’s need to see Jesus, or at least be aware of his presence. That is something I strive for all the time, because, well, why wouldn’t you? Once you’ve had it, you want it again. That pretty much sums it up.

He ended up talking about Arthur Blessitt. This is a man who made himself a cross and spent his life carrying it around the world. I guess he’s still doing it. It’s an amazing story. He used to be on TBN all the time, back in the 80s. I don’t watch TBN any more, because so many of the people on the network seemed like liars and…I’m trying to think of a nice word for “pimps,” but it’s not coming. I thought they preached a very harmful brand of prosperity theology, and I believed it was intended to help them live obscene lifestyles, not to help people get closer to God.

I have seen a lot of people on TBN whom I would urge Christians to avoid following, but I have never heard anyone say a bad word about Arthur Blessitt.

Anyway, here is the story Arthur told Pastor Wilkerson. Arthur said that when he was about 20, he visited a church near Lake Tahoe, and while the pastor of that church was driving him some place, Jesus spoke to Arthur and told him to go down on the beach. The pastor didn’t want to go, so he got a subordinate to take him. So they went to the beach, and while they were walking, they looked out onto the water and saw Jesus standing on it. And they immediately turned away from him, because they were freaked out.

They turned back eventually, and they went into the freezing water and worshiped him. And after a time, they didn’t know what to do, so they started walking away. And Arthur went back once more, and Jesus was still standing there, and he had his back turned to Arthur. And Arthur called out to him, or something, and he turned back to Arthur, and Arthur asked for a blessing. And without speaking, Jesus communicated the following idea to Arthur: Arthur was never to be afraid of anything, because Jesus would always be beside him. And if I recall the story correctly, Jesus held his hands out toward Arthur, and somehow power went from Jesus to Arthur, through Jesus’s hands.

Now, I have heard a lot of nonsense on TBN. I have been told that I should send money to a preacher who drove a Rolls-Royce, for example. And I think Robert Tilton, who is a liar and also crazy as a tree full of coons, used to be on TBN. But maybe Arthur Blessitt really did see Jesus. Some people do. He’s real, after all.

I had a couple of experiences in which I was convinced that Jesus was with me. On one occasion, I felt an invisible beam of love, warmth, and power playing over my body as I tried to sleep, and I fell asleep and then awakened, and when I awakened, my hands were raised, and I felt energy pouring into the palms from up above. I never figured out what that meant, but it definitely happened, and Arthur’s story is similar, in that power moved through a pair of hands. In his case, it moved out of Jesus’s hands, and in my case, it moved into mine.

Don’t ask me what it means. If I were a televangelist in white shoes and an orange suit, I’m sure I’d be able to make something up and convince you to pay me for telling you. But I don’t lie nearly that well. I’m merely a lawyer. I guess I should say that ever since that day, I’ve been able to do something special with power from my hands. Healing the sick, or bending spoons, or taking really stubborn stains out of neckties. But that is not the case.

It was a great sermon, because it reminded me that we are to believe God is real, and that we can actually get away with doing the things he told us to, because he will help us. That’s extremely important. Like Pastor Wilkerson said tonight, it has nothing to do with your ticket to heaven. It has to do with what you achieve here.

After all the things I’ve seen, I should have faith like Arthur Blessitt’s, but I do not. I couldn’t be happy facing a firing squad, for example. He pulled that off. I do manage to come through once in a while, though.

My sister no longer goes to Trinity Church. She felt their message was a little basic. If you watch Perry Stone (one of her favorites), and then you go to Trinity, you will see that Perry Stone digs deeper into the mysteries of the Bible. No doubt about it. But every time I go to this church, I get something I need. It doesn’t seem to matter how simple the sermon is. So I’m still attending. Maybe I have a stronger interest in the fundamentals.

This blog entry made me think of the third psalm, so here it is.

1 Lord, how are they increased that trouble me! many are they that rise up against me.
2 Many there be which say of my soul, There is no help for him in God. Selah.
3 But thou, O Lord, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head.
4 I cried unto the Lord with my voice, and he heard me out of his holy hill. Selah.
5 I laid me down and slept; I awaked; for the Lord sustained me.
6 I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people, that have set themselves against me round about.
7 Arise, O Lord; save me, O my God: for thou hast smitten all mine enemies upon the cheek bone; thou hast broken the teeth of the ungodly.
8 Salvation belongeth unto the Lord: thy blessing is upon thy people. Selah.

I have managed to memorize 13 psalms so far, but I’m starting to lose some of them, so I guess I better start going back over them.

What to do When You Run Out of Bible

Monday, April 27th, 2009

The Book of Jasher

Can’t write too much. My dad’s boat is in the yard, and I have to get up and go to the boatyard with him so we can run it back to the marina. It had oysters on the hull when we took it in. Oysters! I can’t convince him bottom paint isn’t permanent.

Mish Weiss is not enjoying radiation treatment, and some of her blood counts are not good. Keep her in your prayers.

Yesterday I read a big chunk of the book of Jasher. This is an old document which is supposedly a sort of companion to the Torah. Some people claim it’s a forgery, but I believe there are references to it in the Bible. After reading it, I have a very hard time believing it’s not genuine. It’s a long book, and it’s loaded with obscure details and “begots” and so on, and it seems very consistent with the style and message of the Bible. It’s not considered part of the canon, however, so I guess you have to be careful with it.

It’s full of fascinating stuff. For example, it describes the “images” Rachel stole from Laban. It says people used to kill firstborn males and preserve their heads, and they put metal tablets with “the name” inscribed on them under the tongues of the heads. Then they consulted the heads and asked them things, and the heads spoke. Creepy, to say the least. It says an image belonging to someone Laban knew (“Can I borrow your severed head for a minute?”) told Laban where Jacob went when he fled.

The Jews have a lot of stories about the power of “the name,” meaning the true name of God. Supposedly a person who knows it can work wonders, not all of them good. The Torah says something about testing an accused adulteress by making her a drink containing the dissolved name of God. If she’s innocent, no problem, but if not, she gets a disgusting disease reminiscent of the worst types of VD. Maybe Aaron will chime in on the subject.

I hate to say this, but it reminds me of the Coca-Cola formula. Supposedly only two people know it, and they’re not allowed to fly together.

Am I the only one who prefers the term “VD” to the more modern “STD”? It’s amazing how we’re rearranging the language to keep morality out of it. In the past, “whores” used to get “the pox” and “the clap.” Now “sex workers” get “STDs.” Calling it something clean-sounding doesn’t make it morally equivalent to an earache.

Prostitution isn’t “sex work.” It’s a degrading, sinful, disgusting, depraved lifestyle that leads to disease, drug addiction, self-hatred, social isolation, and early death. I guess those are “sexually transmitted adverse results.”

Some books that are not universally recognized as scripture seem silly when you read them, and it’s easy to dismiss them as bogus. For example, it’s hard to take the story of Bel and the Dragon seriously. The style doesn’t match the book of Daniel, and the story is a little cartoonish. But so far, the book of Jasher seems convincing.

I better go put my shoes on.

More

A book called Tree of Souls says the name mentioned in the story of the “images” was the name of a foul spirit, not God. In another place it says “spirits,” plural, and that incantations were also written on the object put in the head’s mouth.

No Church Today

Sunday, April 26th, 2009

Saturday Night, Redeemed

I’m not going to church today. I went last night. It’s much more convenient, and the services are smaller. The traffic is worse, probably because everyone in Miami rushes to South Beach to get drunk and stoned on the weekends. But it’s tolerable.

Back when I started keeping the sabbath, I truly looked forward to and enjoyed the day. When I started attending church regularly, that began to change. Not something I expected. The church has three services on Sunday, at 8:30, 10:30, and 12:30. My preference is to go at 8:30, but my sister insisted on 12:30, and we usually found ourselves leaving for that service between 12:45 and 1:00, which put us there at 1:00 or later. Then we usually ended up doing something after church, and I would often arrive home after 3 p.m. I always prepared to leave by 12:15, so if you add it all up, I was cutting at least four hours out of the middle of the day in order to go to church.

I found it hard to accomplish anything before going, and afterward, I was tired. So the sabbath was not what it had been.

On top of that, my early morning prayer sessions shrunk considerably. It wasn’t by choice. For one reason or another, I had trouble sleeping, and I’m worried about the effects of sleep deprivation, so I would add an hour or two to the alarm. And I was spending way too much time fooling with tools, so I was getting to bed an hour and a half later. Instead of getting up at 5:30, I’ve been getting up between 7:30 and 9:00.

I’m sorry to say that my sister and I have had considerable discord over family business, so she and I have not been to church together for two or three weeks. That’s bad. But when you’re a Christian, good always comes from bad. The good is that I can now get to church on time, and I can go to a service that doesn’t cut the sabbath in half.

“On time” is not completely right. I try to miss the first ten minutes, because that’s when the church concentrates its youth-oriented boombox worship music. I think it’s great that they’re reaching out with that stuff, but it makes my head hurt, and I would like to be able to hear when I’m 60.

I’m going to take Sunday back, starting today. You can’t expect a tree to grow if you don’t take care of the roots, and I have not been doing that. I want to continue to see our lives improve, and that will only happen if I get my routine back and start each day with God. It’s surprising how far off the path you can get in a few days or a week. Fortunately, I miss the sensation of being on track, so I am highly motivated to correct my course.

I haven’t written much lately about this part of my life–less than I wanted–because some mysterious person tried to come between me and my sister by sending her passages from my blog. Things that were intended to upset her. You have to wonder what motivates a person to do things like that. It didn’t benefit them at all, and it was intended to hurt two people who were trying to rebuild a family that was in ruins. And it caused me to deprive readers of material they found encouraging and uplifting. There was nothing positive about this person’s intentions. Whoever did it knew that harm would come of it, and they did it anyway, because that was the point. It was pure malice.

One of the bad things about blogging is that you develop enemies whose existence is completely concealed from you, and they never have the courage or integrity to identify themselves, explain why they tried to harm you, or offer you a chance to work things out with them. The Internet is a playground for the malicious people who are too weak to face their victims, and the rest of us pretty much have to depend on God to defend us. The alternative is to stoop to the level of those who abuse us. Who wants that? Who wants to be the kind of person who hides while distributing viruses, hacking into servers, committing identity theft, spreading inflammatory gossip, or trying to motivate people to harm others? A tick dangling from a dog has more dignity and justification. And a greater hope of success. What God puts in motion, you can’t successfully oppose. You can, however, bring condemnation and shame and misfortune on yourself.

This family has had so much unnecessary pain, and here we are, accepting God’s help and working our way into the light, and someone wants to put a stop to our recovery. Someone out there would draw pleasure from that. What kind of life can that person have? I can understand trying to fill an empty life by doing good for other people. But evil? Especially an ugly and cowardly type of evil? How can that make you happy? Obviously it can’t. Whoever did this has planted seeds of misery and self-loathing in their own field, and their abundant harvest is on the way. They need to repudiate what they did and learn to bless other people instead of attacking them without reason.

The one sure way to make good come of this is to forgive and pray for this person, so that’s what I’ll do. God didn’t bring us this far to be stopped by malevolent gossip.

I don’t care who it was. I don’t want an apology. Whoever you are, I hope you will take a moment and realize that when you make innocent people suffer just so you can draw pleasure from their pain, you do yourself more harm than you can ever hope to do them. As an enemy, you are weak, but the enemy you are making is not, and no one can protect you from him. You have already failed. You never had a chance. You might as well try to salvage something from the experience and protect yourself.

In the end, my sister and I will find blessings in this. You will not. Unless you change while there is time. If you want to make amends, don’t contact me. I don’t need to know your name. Find someone who needs a blessing and give it to them. Give something to the poor or the hungry or the sick. Pray for someone who needs help. Try to find pleasure in doing good, so you will stop bringing misery on yourself.

Cast Your Cares Upon Your Attorney

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

Load Dropped

I feel like I got my life back today.

My family has been sued. It has to do with a small lot sold by an LLC related to my family. The buyers sued the realtor, and now they’re suing the LLC and all the members. The plaintiffs attempted (unsuccessfully) to serve me this week. Really annoying. It seems fairly clear that the case will die a quick death, and even if we lose, no one will have a large loss, but it has to be tended to, and it has caused no end of strife and division. My dad offered to handle it for nothing, with me as his dashing sidekick, but the family turned that down. I thought I would still have to represent myself as an individual defendant, but yesterday I learned that the family had voted to hire someone, and I decided to cast my lot with the new guy.

Today I had to prepare a document and fax crap to the lawyer, and I’m finished, so I feel like I can relax. There is still some anger and dissatisfaction, to put it mildly, but the person experiencing that is not me. Finally, I can get back to studying machining, fixing up my woodworking stuff, and preparing for the lathe to arrive.

While Mike was here, he got all excited about a mahogany board I had made from scratch, and he wanted to check out the tools. We BSed our way through a mahogany mousepad for his desk. The piece of wood we used was really garbage; it was warped, and the sides were far from parallel. I had saved it, figuring I might be able to use a small piece of it. We put it on the planing sled and took it down from over an inch in thickness to about 0.33″. That’s how much wood had to be removed to get two flat, parallel sides. Mike sanded it with the Dynabrade, and then he used the table saw to bevel the upper edges. He did the sawing while I was in the house, with no safety training. Scary. He put both Danish oil and stain on it. Weird. I suggested he get five rubber feet for it, with adhesive backing. That will keep it from sliding around his desk.

We tried to use the router, but it became obvious that my lack of a real router fence was an impenetrable obstacle. So I am making a router fence. I figure I’ll make a long bottomless box about six inches wide and clamp it to the back side of the table saw fence. I’ll be able to use the table saw measuring scale (or a table saw DRO) for both the table saw and the router. I’ll put a hole in it for the shop-vac.

I’ll need about eight feet of wood, a little over an inch in thickness and five inches in width. I’m not sure what to use. Something stable. I’ll have to buy it. Scrap has its limits.

Day before yesterday I saw a gorgeous pile of logs, beckoning to me from the side of the road. If they still exist, I may get them tonight. Some of them. How am I supposed to resist? The local mahogany seems wonderful. It’s too bad the tree people cut it in such short pieces.

I have to get a few router bits. The collection I have is sad.

It’s wonderful, knowing I won’t have to do this litigation, and it’s great having the fighting over with, even if not everyone is happy. You can’t always please people. When you please everyone, it often means you’ve done something you’ll really regret. Sometimes you have to settle for the knowledge that if you trust God, you’ll get peace eventually.

Leah and Mish

Tuesday, April 21st, 2009

More Prayer

Mish Weiss has this to say about Leah Friedman:

Leah needs prayer. ?? ?????? ???? ????? ??? ?? ???? Leah Meira bat Rina. She went in for tests and a minor procedure and there are some serious complications today. My hands are shaking so hard right now it’s all I can do to type this.

I apologize if the Hebrew (which may or may not display correctly here) contains profanity; with Mish, you never know.

Seriously, remember Leah today. If you go to her blog, you can find out just how delicate her situation is.

Mish also says:

Infected central line CVC. Not fun. Fever has an origin now. Their debating removing my CVC and placing this one in my internal jugular vein. Will know more later tonight. Antibiotics are on board. Fever is up and down, I have intense pain around the CVC line.

For what it’s worth, not all of Mish’s signs are bad; her hemoglobin is at 6, whatever that means, and for her, that suggests an arrested decline.