Zoloft and Xanax are Counterfeits

Nothing good comes out of a person unless God first puts it inside him. It’s impossible to do all the things Jesus wants us to do unless he gives us supernatural revelation. I just got a great one.

I was watching a video from One for Israel Ministries. It’s a Messianic ministry in Israel. They put up wonderful testimonies from Jews who got to know their Messiah. They get death threats from rabbis, but they seem to be doing fine.

In case you don’t want to sit through the video, I’ll spoil it for you. A man was in the French army. He was treated badly because he was a Jew. He knew a large, muscular Muslim named Korish. The Muslim asked him for things all the time, and he gave them to him. One day Korish asked him for a cigarette, and he refused to give it to him because Korish never thanked him.

Korish beat him so badly he lost consciousness. He believes he died. He left his body. He prayed to God, asking him to do something, if he really existed.

He reentered his body. He was in a coma for over 5 months. When he woke up, he was given a complaint to sign. Korish would have gone to prison, and he would have had to pay his victim a lot of money. He wanted to put Korish in prison, and he wanted to kill him when he got out. Korish was a mess. He cried all the time and couldn’t eat.

The victim’s family was experiencing a wave of salvations accompanied by miracle healings. He started reading the New Testament. He was captivated by the story of the landlord who forgave his servant’s debts.

I won’t summarize the story, because every Christian knows it.

The victim thought about what he owed God for saving his life, and he forgave Korish. He owed God much more than Korish owed him.

I thought about this. I forgive people all the time. I’m not stupid. I know I have to do it. I also know it makes life easier. I ask God to help me forgive people from the heart. I’ve been asking for that for years.

Today I got a revelation. Somehow, I suddenly had a heartfelt appreciation of the forgiveness I had received. I always try to be forgiving, and I fight self-righteousness, but until today, I couldn’t completely shake the idea that I was doing people a favor when I forgave them. Of course, I’m not. It’s an obligation. In relation to God, I am much worse than the worst person who has harmed me, but God is letting it slide. I am not an underserving victim surrounded by inferiors. I am just like the people I forgive. I knew that already, but now I can feel it. Only God can make me feel it.

I feel peace surrounding me. I want to get off the couch and go run an errand, but I feel like I’m glued here. Everything is so quiet.

The mind can’t save you. The mind is just a door you can use to let the Holy Spirit in.

I’m very grateful. I couldn’t do this on my own. I have been trying so long, I can’t remember when I started.

The funny thing is that I’ve seen the video before.

I guess I’ll sit here and swim in the fog of peace until I can get up.