You have Placed Your Bet

I believe I have over 100 Youtube subscriptions. I’m not sure. It takes a long time to scroll down through all of them.

I have subscribed to some obscure channels maintained by Christians no one watches. One of them belongs to a man who calls himself Brother Grahame. From the sound of his voice, I assume he’s somewhere in northern England. He had an experience in which he found himself in absolute darkness and knew, instantly, that everything he had done in his life was worthless. He knew God existed, and he knew he was the God of the Bible. He knew he should have been serving him.

Today I was looking for something to watch after mowing the yard, and I saw a recent video he published. He had a dream about people building shelters, and in the dream, God spoke to him and told him his wrath was coming. People were preparing shelters that wouldn’t protect them.

I’ll post the video here.

I asked God if his dream meant anything, and I felt the Holy Spirit rushing through me, confirming that the dream came from the Lord.

Since watching the video, I’ve felt grief for the world. I think we are really at the end. I think the age of the gentiles is over, which means the next major event will be the rapture.

Since about 2008, I have been trying to tell people the few things I know about God, and I have had very little success. I tried telling people at Trinity Church in Miami, and the pastors ostracized me and treated me like a child. I tried telling people at New Dawn Ministries in Miami, and the pastors developed a mysterious rage and shut me out, before the head pastor was imprisoned for raping a little girl over and over. Very few people at either church listened to me, and generally, they turned out to be hypocrites. They were Christians on Sunday. The rest of the week, they were getting high, living with people they weren’t married to, listening to filthy music, swallowing the antichristian lies of the political left, dressing provocatively, getting tattoos, and listening to liars like Joel Osteen and T.D. Jakes. They thought anyone who had a TV camera pointed at him was speaking for God, especially when such people told them what they wanted to hear.

I blog about God, and some people have responded, and I reached a small number of people I knew from church. I reached a lady who saw what I said on Facebook. I reached my dad and one other family member. That’s about it. I feel like I accomplished nearly nothing.

I really did try. I never stopped telling people what I knew. I can’t blame myself if no one listened. I don’t know what else I could have done.

Sometimes I think I should be glad I was rejected, because Jesus and the prophets were rejected. Rejection can be a good sign, because no one–no one–who pleases God is popular. But shouldn’t I have had more success than this? If I were doing things right, wouldn’t God connect me with more people?

Shouldn’t I have done better here in America, which is, after all, a country in which most people claim to be Christians?

I hope I will accomplish something before the end. I like to think God is holding me in reserve for something.

For a long time, I’ve felt a strong identification with Zerubbabel, the governor of Judea who helped rebuild the temple under Darius. His name means “seed of Babel.” I believe prayer in tongues is the undoing of the confusion of tongues in Babel. I’ve been saying this for a decade. I came out of a world where tongues were confused, and I pushed people to learn the unifying tongue of the Holy Spirit. Now that I think about it, it’s a little bit like Abraham’s story. Legend says his father made idols, so Abraham would have been an idolmaker’s assistant. He was the seed of a pagan culture. Then God removed him from that culture, and he started a better one.

I keep speaking in tongues and trying to interpret. I have heard God telling me I was going to be his ensign. Then I heard him say I would be his signet. Yesterday, randomly, I listened to Haggai. I heard the part where God said Zerubbabel was going to be his signet. I hadn’t noticed that before. It was chilling.

Signets and ensigns serve the same purpose. They are not authorities. They are things that illustrate someone else’s authority. A signet or an ensign carries the power of the person it belongs to, and when you use a signet or an ensign, you have that person’s power because you act in his name.

We are supposed to speak and act in the name of Jesus.

Sometimes I wonder if anything we do from here on out matters. If you knew you were going to move to another country next week, would you start a business where you are now? Would you look for a wife locally? Would you plant fruit trees? Probably not. I feel like the game is over and the spectators are still sitting in the stands.

If God’s wrath truly is about to fall on us, things are going to be terrible, and you will not be able to protect yourself. He always knows where you are. There are no barriers that can come between you and whatever he wants to do to you. No one can rescue you. Money can’t buy you a way out. Guns won’t help. Prepping won’t help. The government teat won’t help. You can’t bargain. You just have to suffer.

If you rejected Jesus back when you could get away with it, and you thought no one could do anything about it, you will be proven wrong. What you’ve done has been recorded, and it will not be forgotten or forgiven. God’s justice is perfect. He doesn’t let any evil act, no matter how small, go unpunished. If you don’t ask Jesus to take your punishment, you’re going to have to take it yourself. All your smug, dismissive arguments won’t help you. Every word you spoke against Jesus will be like a red-hot anvil resting on your head. All your nonchalance and sarcasm will be gone. There will be nothing left but pain, terror, humiliation, loneliness, and regret so deep it can’t be imagined. You will also suffer the horror of thinking about the loved ones you convinced to go to hell with you. Your children, perhaps. Your spouse. Friends.

Generally, when you worry about something, there is a limit to the suffering. Often, what you worry about won’t happen. When such things happen, they’re usually not as bad as you thought. Even if the suffering is severe, it’s usually temporary. At worst, it only lasts as long as you live. When you’ve been damned, it’s not like that. You can’t tell yourself the thing you worry about won’t happen. It has already happened. You can’t say things won’t be that bad, because you know they will be worse than you can imagine. You can’t say it will be temporary, because you know it will never stop. It will never get any better.

You will be in agony all the time. You won’t be able to die again and escape. There will be no one to hear an appeal. You will never see anyone you love again, and they will all forget you. Your name will disappear forever. Your agony will be fresh all the time, but in heaven, it will be as though you never existed. No one will miss you or ask God to help you. It would be like asking a maternity ward nurse to comfort afterbirth.

They won’t think about you, but you will think about them constantly, because you’ll know they are bathing in God’s love, in a place where there is no suffering of any kind.

My impression is that if we elect Biden, it will be a sign that God has cut us off. It will prove demons rule America, and that God has grown tired of trying to help us. No sane person could witness what the left is doing and vote for a demented liar who will perpetuate it.

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I just read some things about Zerubbabel.

He was supposed to be the king of Judah. His grandfather, Jehoiachin, was cursed. Jehoiachin’s father was evil; he practiced false religions. Jehoiachin continued in his ways, and he only ruled for 100 days before Nebuchadnezzar deposed him and took him captive.

God cursed Jehoiachin:

This is what the LORD says: “Record this man as if childless, a man who will not prosper in his lifetime, for none of his offspring will prosper, none will sit on the throne of David or rule any more in Judah.”

During his lifetime, these things were true. His eldest son Shealtiel should have been king, but Nebuchadnezzar appointed Jehoiachin’s uncle, an impostor.

It’s a remarkable parallel to the life of John the Baptist. John’s father was a temple priest, and John should have been a priest, but the Romans did away with God’s appointments and put political toadies in the priesthood. John was born to teach in the temple, but he became a voice in the wilderness instead.

Zerubbabel ended up joining the lineage of Jesus. He was one of his direct ancestors.

Here is a striking thing Jeremiah said about Jehoiachin, also known as Coniah:

“As I live,” says the Lord, “though Coniah the son of Jehoiakim, king of Judah, were the signet on My right hand, yet I would pluck you off; and I will give you into the hand of those who seek your life, and into the hand of those whose face you fear—the hand of Nebuchadnezzar king of Babylon and the hand of the Chaldeans.”

He referred to Jehoiachin as a signet he would pull off, and later, he called Zerubbabel his signet.

God cursed the entire house of Judah through Jeremiah, saying:

“You are Gilead to Me, The head of Lebanon; Yet I surely will make you a wilderness, Cities which are not inhabited. I will prepare destroyers against you, Everyone with his weapons; They shall cut down your choice cedars And cast them into the fire.

It looks like there is a parallel.

To work against God is to destroy his temple. Solomon’s temple was made with cedar wood from Lebanon. Nebuchadnezzar was able to destroy it because the Jews, led by the kings of Judah, had left it open to supernatural attack. What the Jews did to God, God did to them.

John was supposed to work in a building full of cedar, but he had to teach in the wilderness because the Jews strayed and didn’t keep God’s protection and order in the temple.

John and Zerubbabel had to rule outside of their proper estates because of the rebellion of their forebears.

It’s amazing how Biblical patterns repeat. John and Jesus seem a lot like Zerubbabel and Joshua (same Hebrew name as Jesus), the high priest of his time. Both pairs worked together to rebuild God’s kingdom on earth. There is always symmetry in the supernatural, so Satan has his pair, too. Satan imitates the pattern with the Beast and his false prophet.

I don’t understand everything, but I can tell you that it’s time to get your act together. You can have your pose and your pride, or you can have mercy. That sums it up.