God is Like a River, not a Lake

If you don’t have a new testimony every day of your life, I have good news for you. What you are experiencing is not normal for a Christian. Something is wrong, and when it’s corrected, God will show you something every day.

I have a great tip for you. If you’re being influenced by a Christian who doesn’t have fresh testimony all the time, you need to stop listening to that person. Anyone who is connected to God will be a spring of fresh testimony.

The last two churches I belonged to had a number of pastors, and none of them had much to testify about while I knew them.

I’ll start with Rich Wilkerson of Trinity Church in Miami. He had kidney stones, a rare blood disease, some sort of stones in his chest, diabetes, and, if I recall correctly, at least one new knee. He had back problems so severe he gave cries of pain that disturbed people. And he wasn’t that old. This was a decade ago, and he’s not 70 yet.

He never got healed of anything while I was a member of his church. If he has been healed since, I am unaware of it.

One of his best friends was a self-styled healer named Ted Shuttlesworth. Ted used to come to Trinity and claim to heal people. Someone I know says he witnessed a healing that didn’t involve a shill, so I suppose some people were healed. Somehow, Ted never healed Rich.

I remember Ted having people walk by him so he could touch them. People were getting “slain in the Spirit,” which means that after he touched them, they fell down as though God had taken their strength. He smacked me in the forehead, and I kept walking. I was totally open to the Holy Spirit, but I knew I didn’t have to fake anything.

It seemed to me that he was looking into my eyes, expecting me to fall over.

I don’t think being slain in the Spirit is a real thing. I have had the Holy Spirit’s presence envelop me to the point where I didn’t want to get up, but I could have gotten up if I wanted.

There was a kid named Alan at Trinity; he put a post on Facebook. It said something like, “Six pastors just pushed me down.” That kind of thing happens when preachers are determined to see people slain in the Spirit. There is a kind of silent coercion.

Alan used to make pizza with me in the church kitchen. He came out of the closet several years ago, and as far as I know, he has never returned to God. It’s hard to get over the sour taste the Wilkersons leave in your mouth. When you see so much fakery, how can you believe anything is real?

Rich never came to us with a vision or a prophecy. As far as I know, God never told him anything, or if he did, Rich didn’t hear it.

God did tell him things, now that I think about it. A number of people told Rich what he was doing wrong, and some also told him off when they left his church. He never listened. He encouraged the shunning of God’s messengers, and he plotted against them behind their backs. He had secret meetings about me when I left. Of course, people told me about it.

Rich’s son, who was called “Richie” by older people at the church, didn’t have a testimony, either. Richie, now known as Kim Kardashian’s pastor, had a gaggle of young preacher friends who were trying to become famous, and they fed each other sermons. He even joked about it. He preached about the difficulty of coming up with sermons, and he said he would call his friends and ask them to send him material. He called these sermons “microwave sermons.” You reheat them and serve them.

Imagine going to a restaurant, ordering from the menu, and having them serve you leftovers from a restaurant down the block. This is what he confessed to, and he didn’t understand that he was criticizing himself.

Anything God tells you is like bread from heaven. In the Bible, bread symbolizes God’s word. That’s why the Bible says we shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God. When manna fell from heaven, it was like receiving bread straight from God. The big problem with manna was that it had to be eaten right away. When people tried to store it and eat it the next day, they found worms in it.

If you’re connected to God, you get fresh manna every day. If all you do is reheat the old stuff, you become corrupted and stuck.

When Rich had problems, he turned to human beings. He formed attachments to money preachers and patterned his ministry after theirs. He worked hard to get close to Steve Munsey, who made up a set of packaged lies intended to persuade people to make excessive donations on Jewish holidays. Rich knows these stories are lies, and he has admitted it privately. When a friend of mine asked him about it, he said he continued to teach the fables because Trinity needed money.

Rich is not a good person to rely on. No one is supplying him with anything good, so he has nothing good to give others. If you follow him, you risk becoming like him.

At New Dawn, the church I attended after Trinity, the pastor (Albert) was much more open to the Holy Spirit than Rich, and I think he heard from him, but he closed his ears to things he didn’t want to hear. His false “house prophet,” Jorge, was allowed to stand on the stage and shout for 20 minutes at a time, because he predicted nice things that never happened. When other people went to Albert with helpful suggestions that could have saved his church, he shunned them and told people not to associate with them. He did that to me. He had a screaming fit and physically assaulted my friend Travis in the parking lot of his church, trying to get information about me. Travis threatened to give him a beating.

Albert had a bad weight and blood sugar problem. His wife, who was very brassy and assertive, had gallbladder disease, and she had had a breast cancer removed surgically. He never got any better. His wife lost her gallbladder, and then her cancer returned and killed her.

Albert was eventually exposed as a child molester. He started abusing a girl when she was 6 or younger, and he continued for years. He didn’t repent until he was exposed. The girl’s mother offered him a chance to handle things privately, as long as he stepped down. He agreed for a short time, and then he went back to preaching, She turned him in, and he’s in prison.

Being sent to prison for preaching the gospel or healing people may be a sign that you’re serving God correctly. Going to prison for child rape is not. It shows that you lost God’s protection because you were off course.

Albert had a strange doctrine. He said only certain people in the church could lay hands on others. He said it was particularly important not to let the wrong person put his hand on people’s heads, because demons could enter. Albert laid his hands on people’s heads, while he was molesting a child regularly.

Albert had very limited testimony, even though he did hear from God. Pride made it hard for blessings and deliverance to reach him. Jorge was a big problem, because he made things up, and people relied on them.

It took me a long time to see through Rich for a couple of reasons. First, I wasn’t praying in tongues a lot when I started attending his church. God tells you things when you pray in tongues, and he eventually told me Rich was a mess. Second, people Rich had hurt were very quiet. We have a funny new doctrine in many churches. You’re not supposed to criticize preachers. People leave churches quietly, and they think they’re pleasing God. The problem with this new doctrine is that it allows predatory preachers to attract new people who haven’t been warned.

If a Christian goes to a restaurant and gets food poisoning twice, he’ll tell his friends to avoid that place. Why aren’t we just as protective when it comes to toxic pastors?

It was harder to see through Albert. He lied a great deal. He and his wife pretended to care more about the Holy Spirit than money, and I thought they were serious. I kept praying in tongues, and God showed eventually showed me their problems. He showed me they were childish, greedy, highly manipulative, completely resistant to correction, vindictive, and very addicted to admiration and obedience. They had never had much, so when people started following their orders, parking their car for them, and sending them on cruises, they became extremely infatuated with themselves.

Paul called bad preachers out by name, and so should we. God isn’t going to hit you with a lightning bolt, believe me. He will probably bless you, as he has blessed me. Just be sure you’re obeying God when you do it.

You can’t sit around and wait for everyone in your area to start praying in tongues and have the Holy Spirit warn them about poisonous pastors. It will never happen. When you know the truth, you have an obligation to share it with others who are not as fortunate.

Here are some very bad preachers you should avoid: T.D. Jakes, Paula White, Joel Osteen, John Gray, Keith Craft, David Crank, Benny Hinn, Kenneth Copeland, Joyce Meyer, the Pope, John Macarthur, Steve Munsey, Rod Parsley, Richard Roberts, Oral Roberts, Richie Wilkerson, Carl Lentz, Judah Smith, Jerry Savelle, Jimmy Swaggart, Keith Craft, Marilyn Hickey, Eddie Long, Creflo Dollar, Fred Price, Robert Tilton, Jentezen Franklin, and Jim Bakker. There are lots of others. I would avoid the Bethel people, too. They have testimony about the supernatural, but it seems to be from the wrong side.

Andrew Wommack has a lot of good teaching, but he pals around with prosperity preachers, so he doesn’t have his eyes completely open, and you can’t trust him too much. Same goes for Perry Stone. Stone has a wonderful gift for teaching about hidden things and the supernatural, but he is not the best when it comes to teaching you how to live as a Christian. His dad, Fred Stone, was better.

I’m digressing, I think. My point is that God is supposed to do very obvious things for you every day. If he’s not, then you need to make some adjustments and question the doctrine you’ve been taught. Also, if your pastor isn’t seeing signs and wonders, make sure you test everything he tells you. He is surely wrong about some important things.

I’m glad to say my testimony has not dried up.

I’ve gotten back to fasting. I refrained for quite a while. I didn’t like fasting, even though I knew it was powerful. Some people say they feel close to God and so on when they fast. Generally, that has not been my experience. Fasting used to make me feel weak and crabby, and it gave me a headache. It made me feel like God was farther away. Now, however, I’ve started to feel close to God during fasts, so I’m grateful for that. I’ve started to feel more authority, and that’s what I was after.

I should point out that I didn’t refuse to fast. I would ask God if he wanted me to do it, and I kept feeling that the answer was “no.”

I need to subdue my body. It still causes problems. Fasting is the best-known way to do it. Recently, I felt that God wanted me to start fasting again, so I did. I was happy about this, because I wanted more authority over demons and my flesh.

Demons work through our bodies. They try to fill us with evil desires and feelings. Our bodies love this, because they are stupid. A person’s body is like a dog. If you don’t keep it on a leash and train it, it will run off and roll in feces every chance it gets. If you don’t control your body, demons will.

I fasted yesterday, and this morning I woke up and started the usual supernatural warfare. I felt a knot in my belly, below the sternum. I can tell you from experience that when a demon is upset, this is one way he may show it. You may feel slight nausea and a pressing sensation, as though someone were pushing a fist against you a few inches above your navel.

I cast out every spirit I could think of. I spoke defeat to them. I asked God to pull them out. Then I went back to sleep for a while. I didn’t feel a lot of deliverance at the time, but I knew that sometimes you have to wait.

I woke up again at around 9:30, which is strange for me. Generally, I can’t sleep late even if I want to. I noticed that I felt better than I usually do. I felt like a balloon that had had all the air let out of it. I feel like I’m better able to be gentle, which is something I’ve been wanting. I don’t want to go through life kicking and biting.

I may start fasting several days a week. I have to get my house in order.

I’ve learned something encouraging about fasting. You don’t necessarily have to go all day. I used to fast for between 48 and 72 hours sometimes, taking nothing at all, or nothing but water. God may not ask you to do that. Believe it or not, fasting until noon has an effect. Cornelius the centurion was fasting when he saw the angel that announced Peter’s impending visit, and the angel appeared at 3 p.m., not midnight or dawn.

Lately, I’ve been fasting until 4 p.m. Before starting, I asked God when he wanted me to stop, and this is what I received. If you can’t fast until 4 p.m., you have a serious character issue. It’s just not that hard.

When you fast longer than God asks you to, you make your walk burdensome, and you risk discouragement. You’re not supposed to try to out-holy God. It doesn’t impress or please him.

I found another neat Youtuber. His name is Kenneth Boork, and he’s in Sweden. He goes around healing people, and he does some teaching. Wonderful stuff. I can’t help wondering how many other good channels there are. Youtube promotes stupid content very hard, but since Google is an evil corporation, I’ll bet it suppresses or slow-walks a lot of good Christian material. Maybe there are dozens or hundreds of channels featuring people who are out there healing and teaching.

Boork’s doctrine seems to be in line with that of The Last Reformation, but I haven’t seen him mention them. People who hear from God are going to sound pretty similar whether they know each other or not.

I like The Last Reformation, but let’s face it: it’s a denomination. They would probably deny it, but they have branches and a website, plus a name. They ask people to “join” and do what they do. I know a denomination when I see it. I will never join one again. I’m going to stay free to walk away when things go bad.

Boork has a playlist of videos in which he says he left the church because of his love for Jesus. I can relate to that. The age of the big church is over. Big churches get corrupt way too fast. When I think about going to church, I think of slavery and kissing up to pastors with inflated heads. It’s off-putting. Psalm 23 says God is our pastor, and there is freedom when you’re under perfect leadership.

Pastors can be real tyrants. I was just watching a video in which Boortz appeared to be about to point that out.

I’ll post one of his videos here.

I hope God helps me to go out and heal people. When I went to a Last Reformation kickstart (they really mean “jump start”) to get baptized, my small group didn’t go out to minister, as we were supposed to. That was okay with me, because I was very focused on laying a good foundation with a new baptism. Also, I didn’t like the idea of chasing strangers around malls, trying to lay hands on them. Now I feel better prepared. We’ll see what God does with me.

I found another channel called “The Normal Christian Life.” More healers. They prayed for a guy who had had no success with healers in the past, and they got such good results for him, he became nearly hysterical.

I don’t have people around me to work on, so right now I’ll work with what I have. My pets and myself. What works for strangers will work for us. Good practice is good practice.

It seems that practice is important. Doug Collins, the healer from Windsor on Fire, says he has to go out and heal at least once a week, or he loses power and has to be built up again.

I don’t see any reason not to command my own body to be healed. After all, I have to ride around in it. I repair my house and my vehicles. What’s the difference? I’ve healed myself many times, but I never thought about working at it systematically, like a bodybuilder using the gym regularly. I was reacting as problems arose. I was not proactive. It looks like we need to be proactive in order to be strong. That makes sense. We are supposed to be the head, not the tail. Proactivity is a time-tested, essential part of successful warfare. Look at Pearl Harbor.

My back bothered me for several weeks, but I have been commanding it to be healed, and I have asked other people to pray. I can barely feel any problems now. Two days ago I had to pull the 300+-pound deck out from under my garden tractor again, and my back actually felt better at the end of the day than when I started. I am going to work on my other nagging issues every day.

I think God allowed me to have this problem so I would think about all the people out there with serious disorders. There are people who have been in wheelchairs for half a century. There are people who have spent decades on pain drugs, unable to do things like carrying a bag of groceries. It would mean the world to them to get healed. I feel imposed upon because I went a few days without being able to use my jackhammer. People with serious problems that have been in place for years must be desperate for restoration.

I hope this material is helpful.