Dreams Shaping Up

Interesting things have been happening lately.

For a long time, I have been frustrated by an incomprehensible problem: I am a Christian during the day, but in my dreams, that is not always the case. I do things in my dreams which I would not do during the day, without hesitation or remorse, and I don’t do things I would definitely do while awake.

How can things like this happen? You would think I would be the same person, awake or sleeping, but I recall having a dream where I did something I wouldn’t even desire to do while awake. I can’t remember what it was. Something that would hurt other people, like stealing.

Over the years, I’ve had a lot of dreams in which I was a Christian. The problem with behaving like an unbeliever in dreams seems to have been worse over the last year.

Last night, I had a dream where I was tempted by women, and I started to give in. For some reason, I stopped and used my supernatural tools. I commanded my flesh not to be interested, and I probably spoke defeat to the women and spirits that tempted me.

I don’t recall what happened after that. I think it worked. I’m just glad I made the effort instead of reacting like Larry Flynt.

I’ve been praying to God to help me to be a Christian around the clock, so I feel what happened to me was an answer to prayer.

I used to feel that all bets were off while I was asleep, and when situations I enjoyed presented themselves, I made the most of them. I conjured women for pleasure, for example; I made them appear. In retrospect, that seems a little bit like rape.

I have lucid dreams very often, and sometimes I have taken charge and forced things I wanted to materialize. I now realize iniquity is more important than sin. In other words, the inclination to do evil is worse than the sins we commit, so indulging it inwardly is not acceptable. It’s bad to fornicate while you’re awake, it’s bad to concentrate on sex while you’re awake, and it’s bad to sin sexually in your dreams.

Before Jesus, Judaism was more concerned with acts than motivation. God didn’t expect people to change their natures all that much. He only asked them to restrain themselves. Christianity requires us to change so we don’t desire to sin. You can’t do that if you sin internally all the time. It turns you into a whitewashed tomb, which is the term Jesus used for some religious Jews of his time. You will appear clean on the outside, but inside, you will be full of dead men’s bones (the spirits of demons).

I’m relieved to get this change. Spirit-led Christians aren’t like dieters who get “cheat days.” It’s not okay to sin on the weekends after being good all week. It’s not okay to sin in your dreams. You’re supposed to get free of the compulsion to sin, and you should never go back to it, because you open the door to fresh bondage.

We don’t fight demons. We pursue Christianity as though it were Judaism. We rely on effort, which doesn’t work. We think what we do matters, and we believe that what we want to do or obsess on doing means nothing to God. God gave us all sorts of power at the crucifixion, and we reject it. We want to earn his help or simply help ourselves. Ridiculous. If we could do that, why would God allow himself to be tortured to death in order to save us?

Gun people like to say a pistol is a tool you use to fight your way to a rifle. That’s because pistols are very poor weapons compared to rifles. Similarly, effort should only be a crutch you lean on until God gives you the ability to walk in his power. We hold onto effort. It makes us feel holy, like we’ve paid our debts to God. What does God say about our effort? In the Bible, he compares it to used menstrual rags. Hmm.

Imagine giving your son power tools, materials, and all sorts of instruction and then asking him to build a bird house. Then imagine he throws the tools and materials away and brings you not a birdhouse, but a pile of used menstrual rags he made with his bare hands. Will you be pleased? Probably not. But that’s SOP for Christians. It has been for centuries. We persecute anyone who teaches us to let God do things for us.

“Cheap grace!” “Word of faith heresy!” The responses are always the same.

Moses parted the Red Sea using words of faith, and God cursed him for hitting a rock with his staff instead of relying on words. As for cheap grace, what’s cheaper than the life of a cow or sheep? If I sin and I then kill a sheep, who suffers? Not me. It almost seems like the sheep should be the one who gets salvation. And killing a sheep doesn’t help the person you sinnned against.

God would rather have a birdhouse he essentially built for you than the nicest pile of used menstrual rags–created without his help–imaginable. He is not looking to outsource to incompetents. He is looking to make us extensions of himself.

Sorry for being gross, but God chooses his phrases for good reason.

If I could earn anything on my own or impress God with my works, I think I would know about it by now.

Rehab fails most of the time. Medicine fails every day. Self-help programs fail. Every February, most people who resolve to start working out quit going to the gym. We diet and get fat again. It’s very hard to change yourself, and if you change in one area, you will fail in others. Yet we still rely on our own effort.

I am glad I did the right thing in my dream.

In other news, I have been going over things God told me in years past. I have a Word document where I store such things, and I have a wrinkled printout for reference. For some reason, I left it in my laundry room for months. Yesterday I finally got up and dug it out. When I read it, I get power, peace, and revelation. I don’t know why I neglected it.

I’ve been going over it again. I’m always surprised to see the soundness of things I said about God long ago. I always expect to see terrible errors, but that’s very unusual. I’m doing much better now than I was in 2011, but the things I wrote back then still work. That proves they came from the Holy Spirit. I wasn’t relying on my imagination or listening to demons, like the authors of the Talmud, the Pope, or T.D. Jakes.

This is a big relief. One of the things God told me was, “I have built on a rotten foundation.” He was talking about my own efforts that preceded my decision to submit to him. I wasn’t supposed to be a lawyer. I probably wasn’t supposed to be a physicist or a humorist. I traveled down blind ratholes because I didn’t have God’s guidance. A lot of me has been wasted. At least I wasn’t wrong when I started writing God’s revelations down. Years later, that foundation is holding up.

The Bible uses “sand” to mean the ideas and ways of men. It uses “rock” to mean the ideas and ways of God. It uses “water,” including rain, to symbolize words and voices. The Bible says God’s voice is like many waters.

When you try to find your own way, you build on sand. Then the waters come from people and spirits, and your work washes away. When you listen to God, you build on rock, and nothing can move you.

To the extent that I have been listening to God and trying to comply, I have been building on rock. I haven’t had to go back to my list and cross things out.

Christians are generally weak. Can’t get a word from God. Can’t get a healing. Can’t get financial help. Can’t beat their enemies. Can’t cast out a demon. They play a game of rules instead of getting in touch with God and listening to him.

In the future, when harder times come, the rule-lovers will be unarmed. They will be like cities without walls. Sadly, many of them will be so in love with pride and martyrdom, they won’t have much desire to change.

It’s fine to die as a martyr when God is in favor of it. It’s a victory. Doing it because of pride is ridiculous and wasteful. It’s a defeat and a disgrace.

God wants to tell you things directly. He doesn’t want you to have to wait for a traveling preacher to arrive in order for you to be healed or to receive prophecy. You don’t have to be ordained. You don’t need a church building. You don’t need a giant hat with jewels all over it. If those things mattered, the Pope wouldn’t be a powerless socialist who spreads nonsense and fights God’s children.

God wants you, not the special people on TV. He wants billions of prophets. It doesn’t matter who you are or what you’ve done. He wants every one of us, close to him, like Jesus. He doesn’t want to have to send you messages through other people.

God’s organization isn’t a pyramid. It’s a line, with one level above it. There is God, and on the next level, there are all of us. God doesn’t need to delegate responsibility. He doesn’t need 5 or 6 generals who talk to 30 or 40 colonels who talk to 90 or 100 majors. We’re all supposed to be generals. There are no privates. The Bible says we should be like Christ, not Gomer Pyle. People on TV don’t outrank you. There are people living in trailers who have more power and authority than Joel Osteen will ever have.

If you have to go to church or pay to see a special preacher in order to hear from God, receive help, or get healed, something is very wrong. God is not a respecter of persons. He has no VIP room. We’re supposed to talk to him directly all the time. We don’t have to make appointments with Mary or the so-called “saints.” We don’t have to pay Benny Hinn to ask him for favors for us.

Satan passes power out liberally. He sends lowly, revolting spirits out with the power to make us ill, bend our thoughts, cause accidents, and so on. He gives impoverished people in ghettos and backward nations the power to cast spells and conjure spirits. Yet somehow we think God only works through celebrity preachers and religious bigwigs. Is Satan a more effective manager than God?

The big difference is that Satan’s followers don’t reject his power and persecute everyone who tries to distribute it.

People aren’t listening. Pride tastes like prime steak. Charity tastes like sawdust.

I look forward to whatever God tells me next. There is nothing like revelation that works.