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The Lord That Healeth Thee Isn’t in

Saturday, May 31st, 2014

Instead, Here’s the God Who Watches and Says “There, There.”

Today I read a testimony by a blind woman who got breast cancer. She did not receive miraculous help. Her message: “Don’t think you’re invincible just because you have faith.” I’m paraphrasing.

I subscribe to Kirk Cameron’s Facebook updates, and he was the one who linked to the story from Facebook. The comments on the piece are full of approval.

I just don’t know what to say. Through Moses, God parted the Red Sea and made the water stand up in vertical walls. Through Samson, he exerted hundreds or thousands of tons of force and lifted the gates of a city out of the ground (somehow the stones stayed together). Through Jesus he called a rotten corpse out of a tomb, and it walked to him, resurrected and restored. And today I’m seeing Christians approving a story telling people not to expect too much from God!

“Faith” doesn’t mean accepting suffering as something you can’t change, while still loving God. Faith is a substance, like water or rock (Hebrews 11:1). It exists in the supernatural realm. God provides it to us when we pray in tongues, and then when we need it, it’s there, and we can send it to God to cause powerful works here on earth.

People have said God doesn’t do miracles any more, except possibly on rare occasions, through a Pope, or at Lourdes. That’s the attitude the beggars at the Pool of Bethesda had! They couldn’t make anything happen. They had to sit and wait and hope to be there when the waters moved. Didn’t the crucifixion change things at all? Of course it did. Jesus said we would do GREATER works than his. He said WE would do them, not that GOD would do them.

Christianity would still be wonderful even if God didn’t heal disease and block our enemies. God didn’t need to offer us these things in order to get us to accept salvation. But he did. And he didn’t say it was a temporary offer.

Some people cite 1 Corintians 13:8 as evidence that miracles would cease. It says:

“Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge,it will vanish away.”

It doesn’t mention miracles. And as for tongues, it refers to a time in the future, when Jesus is with us and tongues are no longer needed. When the enemy is beaten and the war is over, you don’t need to talk in code.

Human beings have a natural tendency to try to explain bad things away. The church got away from the Holy Spirit, miracles dried up, and people didn’t know why, so they decided it was God’s plan. They didn’t want to say the Bible wasn’t true, so this seemed like a better option. They made excuses for God, which is about as ridiculous as it gets. They should have been asking themselves what they were doing wrong, but the church had policy of torturing and burning people who questioned the party line.

These days they just tell you you’re a divider and not a positive thinker. They would probably burn us if they could, though.

The world is full of Christians who deny God’s power because they can’t find it. Not because it isn’t available. “If my church doesn’t have it, it must be evil.”

Tongues are still with us. Miracles are still with us, and they happen to millions of people, not just Popes and strange homeless men who wander around in robes.

It’s good to teach people to stick with God even when things go wrong, but to teach them that things will never go right…well, let me put it this way: did Jesus ever teach that? He warned people that they would be persecuted and even killed, but he didn’t say anything about living in a pattern of consistent defeat. He said he had overcome the world for us, and that it would not harm us.

Barring a word of warning from a prophet, I will always look for the best possible outcome in any situation.

Denying the miraculous is carnal. It is the DEFINITION of carnality.

Clean House

Thursday, May 29th, 2014

Rid Yourself of Illegal Immigrants

The positive comments I’ve been getting are surprising to me. My readership has gone down by about 98% (although I can’t account for accumulation sites that steal my work and redistribute it without impacting my Sitemeter), and apart from that, this is the Internet, where everyone claws and hacks at each other. When you write something here, you don’t expect waves of love in response. On the contrary, you are more likely to worry that nuts will find your house and vandalize it.

I’m glad I’m not getting a lot of criticism for discussing God without a divinity degree. There are denominations that have nearly zero interest in hearing from people who haven’t immersed themselves in church history and in misguided publications written by ancient figures who read a lot of books but never encounted the Holy Spirit.

For the most part, what I relate here is testimony. That means it’s things I experienced, or it comes from personal revelations. That’s as good as it will ever get. I am not going to spend ten years getting a Ph.D. in theology before saying what I know to be true. That can’t be helped. It’s an unreasonable expectation.

You can’t require God to work through the people you choose. He picked Amos the vinedresser and Rahab the prostitute. He chooses whomever he wants, and he seems to delight in picking people whose nature offends church bigwigs. It happened over and over in the Bible. Jeremiah the kid, Jepthah the son of a prostitute, Moses the stuttering murderer with low self-esteem…it’s not just a freak occurrence when it happens. It’s actually a pattern.

We love anything that seems “official.” We look for a stamp of human approval. This is why so many people idolize (word chosen carefully) greedy louts they see on TV. God doesn’t work that way. He is not about centralized authority. He came here and died so authority could be distributed among millions or billions of his children. He did not come to create levels of closeness to him, with a few really impressive saints who are his children and lots of little people who are stepchildren, grandchildren, or subcontractors. Every one of us is supposed to be right up there next to him. There is God, and beneath him there is one (and only one) generation of children, and we are brothers and sisters.

You may call a person your “father in the faith,” and that’s okay, and it has a valid meaning in its own way, but he’s still just a brother. If he tells you one thing, and God tells you another, you should listen to God.

There are people out there who will get very angry if you disagree with Benny Hinn, based not on the quality of his teaching, but on his personal wealth and the size of his audience. Nonetheless, Benny Hinn is a pretty unproductive role model, and he is wrong about many important things. The Pope is wrong, too. People you know may be better sources of information. It’s a mistake to refuse to listen to a Spirit-filled Christian just because you know him, and because he isn’t famous. If you don’t think a supermarket bag boy can be a prophet, you need to open your eyes.

People could come here and tell me I’m useless because I didn’t go to a seminary and turn Christianity into calculus. They’re not doing that, and it’s a relief.

Testimony from a truthful person connected to the Spirit is much better than dusty books written by people who became famous after the church fell into a state of rot. Books are full of theory, guesses, mistakes, and lies. Testimony is what actually happened. The conclusions you draw from it may be wrong, but the testimony itself is not. It is reliable. That’s a big deal.

Much of the doctrine of old denominations comes from wrong guesses and deliberate lies. This was also true of Judaism in Jesus’s time. He said the Jews of his day venerated man’s traditions and, in so doing, made the scriptures ineffectual. He used ignorant men from Galilee to spread his knowledge. The scholars were useless to him because they had no respect for his education, so he used people who listened, and by doing that, he proved that the whole notion of religious scholarship is misguided. Heaven isn’t full of geniuses.

The other day I realized that in practical terms, a genius can be less intelligent than a person who has a low IQ yet is willing to listen. I know people who are very smart, who do very stupid things over and over for decades. I also know people who aren’t smart, who listen to good advice and do smart things. These people have better lives than stubborn smart people. They live wisely. So regardless of their mental limitations, effectively, they are more intelligent than smart people.

I have spent a lot of time living stupidly, and people my age who are not as bright, who listened to God from their youth, have led lives that have been much more prosperous and peaceful. I suppose I, better than anyone, have the authority to say that brains can get in your way, and so can knowledge.

God gives me a lot of revelation now. I’ve read the Bible, but I haven’t memorized it, so I don’t know everything that’s in it. Very often, I’ll tell people something about God, and then weeks or months later, I’ll see it in the Bible, in a passage I don’t remember reading. If I get a true revelation from the Holy Spirit, and I pass it on honestly, it’s as reliable as the Bible. People forget that the Bible was written by ordinary human beings. If every copy were burned tomorrow, and it were impossible to rewrite it, its teachings would still live. God would continue revealing them to people who pray in tongues. Eventually we would have a new and different Bible, if we needed it, and it would be accurate.

If you don’t respect me, it doesn’t matter. Don’t read my blog. Just pray in tongues, be honest with God, and keep moving. Eventually you’ll know everything you need to know. But if I can be useful to you, keep reading. I am not making stuff up, and it really does work.

I keep learning about spirits. It seems like a lot of charismatic preachers are taking pains to discourage people from “blaming the devil” for everything, and that’s dangerous, because every one of us has demons and fallen angels to fight. It’s not just epileptics and people who cut themselves.

The Bible calls us “houses.” A house is a structure in which beings dwell. Your spirit dwells in you. No other spirit should be in there, except for the Holy Spirit. Satan is a spirit. Other fallen angels are spirits The demons–our half-human cousins, who were birthed by women–are spirits. Jesus made it very clear that they can dwell in us. He described a man as a house an evil spirit can leave and then return to, bringing seven worse spirits. He wasn’t just talking because he had a big mouth. He was serious. He was warning us. You can’t be a Christian and not believe in Spirits. To believe Jesus was God was to believe he knew what he was talking about, and he believed in Satan and demons.

I believe people from certain segments of society are more likely to be oppressed by spirits. I’m from Eastern Kentucky, where people live in defeat, and my family has had all sorts of demonic issues. I know a lot of black people, and they have the same problem. One powerful sign of demonic aggression is dysfunction in a family. My family is highly dysfunctional. When I was a kid, we were afraid to see my dad come home. My sister could not do right to save her life. I had nightmares every night until I was eight or nine years old. I never saw my parents show affection for each other. My sister and I could not stand each other. My parents didn’t know God, so they opened the door to every spirit you can name, and in they came.

My sister’s current state of defeat, misery, anger, and bitterness is impossible to describe adequately with words. I had all sorts of failures and problems in life, in spite of my intelligence, talents, and advantages as a white American from an upper middle-class family. My dad has no grandchildren. My sister and I are single. My mother died from self-inflicted lung cancer. My dad is tense, angry, and hopeless, and he resists God in spite of every sign God gives him.

We didn’t get here on our own. We had lots of help from Satan. Even when we tried to turn things around, forces we could not resist slapped us down. We were not children of God, so we had not inherited authority. When you have no authority, it’s normal for bad things to happen to you.

I spent most of my life making myself a boarding house for demons. I indulged sexual lust. I indulged anger and bitterness. I cultivated pride, thinking self-esteem was the secret to success. I thought I was a good person because I told the truth and didn’t try to hurt anyone (physically). I left the front and back doors open all day, every day. To think I would not end up with demons, because “that was only in Bible times,” would be truly fatuous.

I have been delivered from a number of things in services at my church. Some people are embarrassed or not honest enough to ask for deliverance in front of other people. Not me. I don’t care if it’s on national TV. I want these things OUT. So when God tells me to, I will gladly go up and get help.

I was delivered from acedia and a spirit of murder before the whole church. Maybe some people thought I was nuts. I don’t care. I felt these things leave me. They were real. I felt their fear when my pastor said people needed to be delivered. My body turned cold. My hands were like ice. And after they left, I was changed. Deliverance is not phony, and it is not something only a few people need.

This morning I received a deliverance here at home. For as long as I could remember, I had had a problem with a crazy voice that said awful things in the back of my mind. I am extremely creative, so I am used to having ideas fly around in my head, and I had always assumed this was the source of the voice. It would say or think terrible, disrespectful things about God. It would put obscene images in my head. This morning God told me what it was, and I was amazed. It was a spirit of antichrist.

I didn’t realize a committed, sincere Christian could have this problem. I am a hundred percent serious about my walk with God. I have no interest in going back. I am Spirit-led. But there was still a snotty voice that said strange things about God. I paid no attention to it, and I thought it was ineffective, but it wasn’t something I liked.

Today I spoke to it, and I told it to be cast into the sea. I felt the powerful faith that comes from prayer in tongues, and I felt the fear of NOT believing, which helped me even more. I felt the spirit’s defeat.

When it was over, my mind was still. This happens when you receive deliverance. An unwelcome voice that yaps and yaps is gone, so it seems quiet. It’s a great relief. Like having a splinter removed.

Here’s an interesting thing: one spirit may do more than one thing to you, and it may have buddies. If you have a spirit that makes you angry, it might do something else that seems unrelated. Maybe it will make you gluttonous or lazy. Who knows? But if you receive deliverance from a spirit you know to be involved in one area of your life, you may get relief in areas that seem unrelated.

This thing didn’t like God. In particular, it did not like Jesus. It envied him. But I think it also hated people, because the people who treat me badly don’t annoy me as much now.

Spirits can come back. You may have to keep throwing them out. But they can’t win. They don’t have the authority to overcome you when you persist.

I put this out there because it’s important. Many Christians hush this stuff up, and that hurts people who need to know it. I don’t feel like hushing it up. I am too old to whimper about the negative opinions of people who don’t know anything.

This morning I got a word from God, and I kept repeating it back to him: “Thank you for cleansing my house.”

If there are parts of you that you don’t like–if you get sick of yourself sometimes–it may be that you have spirits to deal with. If you feel compulsions and attitudes that don’t appeal to you and seem foreign to you, it may be because they ARE foreign. You can be rid of them. You’ll need faith, so pray in tongues every day. But you can be free.

How to Hack Reality

Monday, May 26th, 2014

Lift Your Snout up to Heaven

Another weird week has gone by.

A day or two ago, someone told me Kanye West had gotten married, and that a pastor from my old church officiated. Once again, that place affirms the worst things I’ve thought about it.

Eventually people from the church expressed their approval online. That was to be expected. When you’re blind, and you lead the blind into deeper blindness, they will be impressed whenever you wander into a new ditch.

I saw an online defense of this grotesque affair. The usual excuses were made. We aren’t supposed to judge. Anything that increases the size of the church is justified, because it means more people go to heaven.

Of course, that stuff is wrong.

First of all, we are REQUIRED to judge. Matthew 7 is not a ban on judging. It is a warning that before we judge others–which is one of our duties–we have to judge ourselves. Otherwise we lose perspective, and we start demanding more of others than we demand of ourselves. And we start to think of ourselves as righteous, which is a big mistake. We are supposed to judge ourselves, and having done that, we are expected to judge others. We are not expected to scream and yell and tell them they’re going to hell, but we are supposed to point out their errors so they can correct their courses.

So I am tired of hearing “Judge not.” It’s the motto of the people who are using homosexuality to destroy Christian lives.

Second, as a pastor pointed out in my church Tuesday, Jesus did not shoot for the biggest church possible. In fact, he shrank the church. On Pentecost, out of the thousands of people who claimed to love him, only 120 were left. That’s just the way the kingdom of God works. Most people don’t get in. Most people will not listen and change.

The gate is small, and the path is constricted. It’s just like the birth canal. We are supposed to be quality believers, not fair-weather Christians. If we are strong and full of knowledge, we will be able to raise up future generations of believers. If not, no matter how many of us there are, we will fail, and the church will either cease to exist or cease to be relevant because it’s so weak.

Jesus doesn’t want people to go hell, but then again, he’s not the one who sends them there. God does force people into hell after they die, but while they live, their own choices determine their paths. Because of free will, God is not able to save everyone. That’s a fact of existence, and it can’t be changed. Nothing we can do will prevent hell from being filled up. We can reduce the population, but that’s about it.

If we whore ourselves out and stop teaching about sin and transformation, we will become part of the world, which is exactly what happened at my old church. It’s not really a church. It’s a whorehouse. It belongs to the secular world. It does tremendous harm. I know because I deal with the refugees.

So numbers do not justify resisting God. What we gain in the present day, we will lose, with interest, in the future.

I’m all for evangelizing Kanye West, but that’s not what’s happening. He’s evangelizing the church for Satan. He is teaching kids they can fornicate and grovel for society’s approval and still be good Christians. That’s wrong. He should not be held up as a role model. He should be held up as a warning. He is ignorant. He is obnoxious. He is arrogant. He makes his living corrupting children. He lives a cursed life, no matter how it looks to the simpleminded. No pastor should be associating with him publicly until he repents. Once again, the world is leading Trinity Church, when Trinity Church should be leading the world.

It’s sad, because the young pastor who performed the rite is headed down a blind alley. He is trying to make himself famous using his natural abilities. The hard truth is that he doesn’t have a lot of natural ability. He’s not particularly smart. His personality can be off-putting. He has no talents to speak of. What he did have, way back when, was the ability to receive revelation and pass it on to others. That was his only real hope of success. But it’s not what he is relying on.

There are talented preachers out there who have hit the big time because they have talents. Benny Hinn has a giant ego, a complete lack of shame, and a fair talent for showmanship. Keith Craft is a talented speaker with a big bag of motivational tricks he took from people like Zig Ziglar. Kenneth Copeland is a gifted manipulator, and he has the ability to intimidate and dominate people. Joel Osteen is shrewd and cunning, and he knows what people like to hear. The pastors at Trinity look up to people like this, and they want to be like them, but they don’t have their gifts. In the natural, they are mediocre. They need God’s help to make it.

For every Led Zeppelin, there are a thousand local bands that play in filthy bars. For every rock musician who becomes a millionaire at 20, there are a thousand who find themselves living in rented trailers at the age of 60. That’s how the natural world works, and pastors who chase the TBN sideshow barkers are at the mercy of that system. They always think they’re on the verge of success, but for the vast majority, it will never come. Satan gives a few people the illusion of success so many others will chase the same mechanical rabbit. It’s like a lotttery. Not everyone can win.Lotteries give, but their purpose is to take.

So I’m not happy about the Kanye West marriage, but I don’t think it matters, because that church was going nowhere anyway.

Things keep going crazy in my own walk. Having escaped the shadow of the curse on the other church, I am growing in the light in the new one.

I have received a lot of revelation lately. The pieces of the puzzle keep coming to me because I pray in tongues. I can only scratch the surface here, because it would take 10,000 words to cover it all, but I’ll give it a shot.

I’m learning more and more about grace, which means everything–things we haven’t earned–that God does for us.

It’s very clear that we are not supposed to try to help God. We should obey, but we shouldn’t do anything he hasn’t told us to do. If you go out and build an orphanage when God hasn’t told you to do it, you have sinned, no matter how many kids you help. Imagine what God’s response would have been had the Hebrews built an orphanage for the children of Jericho.

The Bible calls us “heirs,” and an heir is a person who has already received title to things that belonged to a dead person. If you’re in your dad’s will, and he’s alive, you’re not an heir yet. Legally, it’s incorrect to call you an heir until he dies.

On the other hand, there are little hints as to how God feels about carnal people. He calls us heirs, but he says the “wages” of sin is death. So sinners have to work for wages, and we don’t. That makes sense. Work is a curse, found in the book of Genesis. Jesus died to remove it from us. If you choose to pick it back up, you will have to be satisfied with what you can earn instead of receiving the fortune God built.

These days, a lot of people hate heirs. We admire any fool who calls himself a self-made man. A big percentage of Americans support stealing money from heirs via the estate tax, simply because they don’t like to see other people receive things they themselves can’t have. They learned this attitude from Satan. He’s evil, and so are we, but unlike him, we have a way out. He has to be humiliated and burn forever while we enjoy a beautiful life in the presence of God. We are like spoiled younger children whom older children hate. We are like Joseph, Isaac, and Jacob.

We are not comfortable with the idea that we should go to God and seek things we don’t deserve. Churches love to tell us that we have to earn God’s help, which is just stupid. God came down to us and literally died so we could have a fortune he created, and the church ran in front of it and told us we could not have it. And to this day, it sits largely untouched. Healing. Freedom from internal wickedness. Financial success. Victory. It’s all sitting there, with the shrink wrap still on it.

If you think about it, opposing inheritance is moronic. Look at the way it works on earth. A man is born with nothing, and he ruins his life in order to obtain skills, money, land, and possessions. What happens if he doesn’t leave it to his kids? They have to do the same thing. Over and over, succeeding generations end up serving Mammon and their bellies, building the same heap of dung up, over and over again.

Is that intelligent? Why would anyone think that was a good idea? Yes, sure, you can spoil kids, and you may destroy their work ethic. But in reality, that has nothing to do with inherited money. There are plenty of rich kids who work hard even though they don’t have to, and God knows the poor are lazy. Other factors are at work.

God never rewarded ANYONE in the Bible for hard work. Some people point to Ruth, but she didn’t work. She was a charity case. She took grain someone else grew. She paid nothing.

God rewards faith, not work. Faith is more important than need. God will let you die in misery if you don’t have faith. Faith is the money of his world. And he told us the way to get it: habitual prayer in tongues. That’s in the book of Jude.

The Bible is like a catalog. God has put a lot of offers in it. He has made a lot of promises. If you want something from the catalog, you have to BUY it. Isaiah said we would BUY without money. And when you want something from a catalog, you don’t REQUEST it. You ORDER it. You have a legal right to it. So you can decree things that are consistent with God’s promises, and if you have faith, they will come to pass.

Jesus told us that if we told a mountain to be thrown into the sea, and we believed in our hearts, it would be done. He was speaking of the strongholds in our lives. He didn’t just say we could ask for the mountain to be removed. He said we could ORDER it to move. And faith is the lever that moves it. That faith is not you trying to believe; it’s the Holy Spirit believing inside you, because you pray in the Spirit.

You can speak to the curses in your life and tell them to be thrown into the sea.

We don’t do this much. Instead, we beg. Because we have no money to buy. We have no faith. “God please do this. God please do that. Pity me. Feel sorry for me.” That’s not how a rich kid talks. A rich kid speaks with authority. “Here is my dad’s American Express card. Go get that red Porsche and bring it to me NOW, and I want the air conditioning running when it gets here.”

If you lack faith, you are poor in spirit. Literally.

I take an authority-based approach now. I tell my iniquities to be cast into the sea. I tell my persistent curses to be cast into the sea. It works. I’m not saying everything is perfect as of this second, but I am headed the right way, and there is no power that can stop me. I will arrive.

I got a few interesting revelations this morning, which I will pass on.

Remember when Jesus cast the demons out of the Gadarene, and he let them go into pigs, and the pigs drowned themselves? This is related to the story in which Peter walked on water. People love to say Jesus walked on water, but that’s not the important part of the story. What Peter did was more important.

We are born under curses, and we come into this world with demons (our cousins, because their mothers were human) assigned to us. Every Christian has demons, and they may manifest in things like disease, deformity, or iniquities. When you come to Christ, you are supposed to get rid of them.

In the Bible, waters represent beings, or more specifically, their voices and words. The Sea of Galilee was the Satan-hijacked world, full of human and spirit voices. When Peter stood on the water while looking at Jesus, he was showing that a Christian can rise above the evil voices and live in victory.

Look what Psalm 32 says:

For this cause everyone who is godly shall pray to You
In a time when You may be found;
Surely in a flood of great waters
They shall not come near him.
You are my hiding place;
You shall preserve me from trouble;
You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.

People aren’t afraid of actual water. We don’t sit up nights worrying that we will drown in flash floods.This refers to evil words. All the power in the world comes from words.

We are supposed to stay focused on Jesus and his power and promises. And we should be AFRAID to doubt. Peter could have died because of his doubt. As of today, I understand what “fear of the Lord” means. It means fear of doubting him. We should be afraid to slander him in our hearts by doubting him. The Bible equates faith with righteousness, so unbelief is sin. And it’s a very big sin. It cuts the extension cord that makes God’s power tools run for us.

The Gadarene symbolized a saved person. Jesus cast his demons out, and they ran into pigs, who symbolize wordly people. If you get delivered from demons, there is nothing to prevent them from going into your neighbor the Buddhist, because he has no covenant with God. What did the pigs do? They ran to the water–the voices of evil–and drowned. This is how life actually works. If you’re carnal, you will drown. If you can focus on Jesus, you will walk on the power of the world.

The supernatural is everything. If this world is a river, the supernatural is the rain that fills the source. Carnal people fight with natural tools. They work hard. They sin in order to get around problems. They believe in themselves. And eventually, their efforts fail, whether in their own generation, or those of their descendants. But God’s people are supposed to use spiritual tools like blessing, cursing, and prayer. We strike at the roots, not the leaves. And we get long-lasting results. As the Bible says, whom the son sets free is free INDEED. It’s not an illusion intended to lull you into more error.

Faith is a hack. It hacks reality. Using natural tools is like correcting a Microsoft Word error by putting white out on your screen.

Final thing: you can speak cleansing to your DNA. Science now says that events leave impressions on our DNA, and these recordings can be passed on. So believe it or not, curses can be recorded in DNA. It makes sense, since many generational curses are genetic. God gave me a crazy idea; he told me to speak cleansing to my DNA. And I did it. It works. I have no idea what the results will be, but I can tell you that God moved.

I could go on, but that’s all I feel like saying. Put this stuff to work, and you will see more success in your life. Your definition of success may change, but that’s a blessing, too.

The Tower of Gutenberg

Tuesday, May 20th, 2014

Print Your Way to Godhood

Interesting stuff is happening here.

I got my garage fixed up to the point where I can actually use it. I call it the Garage of Shalom. The tools are arranged in a fairly orderly way, there is a nice air conditioner, and the floor is usually safe for bare feet. I am mostly done putting reflective foil in the roof so the AC won’t have to work as hard, and I have a 30″ TV I can use to watch tool DVDs.

Last year I ordered some CNC plans for my mini-lathe. This week I’ve been working on it. Yesterday I bought some metal, and I started working on the knurled knobs that will permit the lathe to be used manually.

Knurling is a bit of a pain, especially when, like me, you don’t practice. Also, there is conflicting information out there about how to do it. Let me clear one thing up, in case you’re a beginning machinist: DIAMOND KNURLS WILL WORK WITH ANY DIAMETER WORK. You will hear people say that you have to measure the circumference and take test passes. That’s true with straight knurls, but diamond knurls will line themselves up somehow. This doesn’t come from me; it comes from an extremely skilled elder machinist. So quit measuring.

I know of two types of knurling tools. One mashes knurls against the work from the side. This pushes the work off-axis and requires lots of force. It’s a bad idea. The other type of tool is called a scissor knurl. It’s like a pair of pliers with a knurl on each jaw. You tighten it up so one knurl is pressing into the top of the work and the other is pressing into the bottom. The forces cancel, so the work is not pushed away from the center axis of the lathe.

One problem with knurling is that it doesn’t like being held in a chuck. You may be able to put a knurled part in a chuck with hard jaws without marring it, but don’t count on it. I’ve found three ways to deal with this issue. 1. Leave the knurling for last, so the part is never held by the knurled portion. 2. Make a longer knurled portion than you need, so you can cut it off after you chuck it to do other operations on the work. 3. Use soft jaws to hold the knurled portion. Number 3 is a lot of work unless you have soft jaws sitting around waiting.

This is a photo of the knob I ruined yesterday. It’s about 2″ wide. I don’t feel bad about destroying it, because it was my second try, and I learned a lot while doing it.

05 20 14 aluminum knob knurled and damaged

This knob is supposed to have a 1″-thick part that attaches to the stepper motor or something. Then it goes to a 2″ knurled portion. The thin part is only 1/2″ long. If you try to grip the knob by the thin part when you knurl it, it will spin in the chuck, because in order to get clearance for cutting tools, you can only put it about 1/4″ into the chuck. That means the way to do it is to make a really long knurled portion, turn the part around, cut the thin part, turn it around again, and trim off the excess knurled part.

I tried to do this, but because I used a short piece of stock, I could only put the knurled part about 3/8″ deep in the chuck, so I had to take shallow cuts when finishing the thin part. I went over 0.050″, and the part came loose and fell in the chip pan. It was ruined. But now I know how to do it next time, and the metal I used was scrap, so who cares?

CNC is interesting to me, because it is part of the developing home-manufacturing revolution. This era started with inkjet printers.

Before there were inkjets, we used keyless electric typewriters that had been interfaced with computers. They were called daisy wheel printers, because they used metal wheels with “petals” that had characters on the ends. The wheels rotated, and the petals where slammed into the paper when the appropriate characters were lined up.

This process worked great, if you were satisfied with what a typewriter could do. When inkjet printers arrived, the world changed, because they could put a tiny dot anywhere on a page. Any image that could be built from dots could be printed. Now we use that concept in forming 3D objects. If you can move a printing jet anywhere you want, you can do the same thing with a cutter, laser, or waterjet.

I don’t know if printers were influenced by CNC, which already existed, or if the eventual merging came via some other route, but at some point we ended up with relatively cheap machinery that essentially printed parts. You can buy a CNC router right now that will allow you to draw something on your PC and then “print” it into wood by moving a router bit over the work. This also works with plasma cutters and water jets, and you can also buy 3D printers that form complex objects gradually from extruded plastic.

I don’t know how close CNC lathes and mills are to that type of interface, but if it isn’t being done right now, it will be this year, because it’s an obvious step in the evolution of home manufacturing.

I’m not that excited about 3D printing right now, because the parts it makes are flimsy. Sooner or later, we’ll be able to make metal and composite parts using printers, and when that happens, people like Barack Obama will start wetting the bed, because it will be impossible to control manufacturing of guns and other weapons.

The lathe I’m fixing up will not be all that exciting, but it will definitly be cool. I don’t know if I’ll be able to make precision tapers (Morse, etcetera), but I should be able to do all sorts of threading, and I should be able to make lots of curved shapes that are difficult to produce on a manual lathe. And things that would now take a day to make will take half an hour or less.

I can’t see myself CNCing my mill, because it’s more complicated than a lathe, and I don’t want to lose manual operation. But at some point, I would like to get a smaller mill and set it up. I’ll put up two videos to show why. The first is a manual mill producing a relatively simple part with a lot of effort and preparation, and the second is a CNC mill doing something difficult in a very short time.

That second mill is a home-converted Grizzly G0704. There is a guy who calls himself “Hoss” who teaches people how to do this conversion. If you’re not impressed by that video, there are surely better ones.

Generally, there are two types of parts made by manual mills: simple, clunky-looking parts produced manually and beautiful, complex parts made using CNC. The computer can easily do things that are hard or impossible for a person, and it can replace a lot of expensive tooling. It multiplies the usefulness of the mill by a big number. And you can have all this for a couple thousand dollars. If you buy a new mill that’s ready to use, you only have to spend about twice that much, and if you think about it, for an average homeowner, over the course of twenty years, that isn’t a big expense. It’s two nice refrigerators, and it will allow you to avoid a lot of expensive repair calls, because you’ll be able to make parts when things break down.

And it’s fun.

Many people who make CNC routers call them milling machines. This leads to confusion, I guess. A true milling machine cuts hard metal with great precision, and it’s a heavy piece of equipment, because you need a lot of iron to resist bending and twisting when the forces are applied. Some CNC routers can cut aluminum fairly well, and for this reason, the people who make them like to call them milling machines. If a milling machine is what you want, a router will probably disappoint you. But it’s still a great tool.

Here’s a CNC router at work.

I’m not watching every second of these videos, so I hope they contain enough information to serve their purpose.

These things print objects. That’s what it boils down to. And you don’t have to apprentice for ten years to run one.

I have to wonder if the government has any idea what’s in store for it. The press was not ready when blogs came along and put it in a chokehold. They can’t control information any more. Now the government is facing the same problem, in a different area. It can’t control manufacturing. It never could, but it is now losing control to an unprecedented degree.

People are drawing up plans for firearms. The government is trying to prevent the plans from getting out, but even the NSA, which keeps its nose up our rear ends every second of our lives, can’t control flash drives and private networks. The government’s nerds aren’t as good or as numerous as the non-government nerds. They will never be able to keep up.

We are getting more powerful. There is no way to stop it. New moral challenges are looming. If the government can’t stop us, what will? I’m glad Tea Partiers and Christians are empowered, but what about jihadists and enviro-terrorists? The stupid, heartless, clumsy government has too much power. Internet nuts have too much power. It’s not confined to good people. And there is no possible way to regulate any of this effectively. We might be able to do something with Uncle Sam, but everyone else is on the honor system. And there isn’t much honor.

Whatever. I want a CNC lathe. I may want to CNC my plasma cutter. I want a CNC mill and maybe a router. And if 3D printing ever becomes useful, I want that, too. I do not want to build bombs or automatic weapons, unlike many people who want these tools. I just want to be able to make stuff and “discover my hands.”

When the Internet was young, we didn’t see the changes it would bring. We still don’t see the future impact of the printing revolution. Life is going to be very weird when three homes on every block have CNC tools. I think the patent office is going to have a lot of new business, and so will lawyers who sue for infringement.

When God created man, he knew that we had the capacity to become gods. He knew that if he left us alone long enough, we would be capable of incredible feats. I suppose that’s why hell exists. The beings that refuse to submit have to be caged, or sooner or later they will do damage so great we can’t conceive its magnitude. In the relatively near future, we are going to see what happens when man can’t be controlled. It may be quite a show.

And now, for no good reason, a photo of the godson.

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The Competitor’s Product Stinks

Monday, May 19th, 2014

Come Try the Real Thing

When you get baptized with the Holy Spirit, sometimes you will feel his emotions as though they were your own. It happened to me at the National Holocaust Memorial in Washington. I walked in and felt a wave of grief, and I knew it didn’t come from me. This morning, during prayer, I got a taste of the way I should feel about prosperity churches, and it was not good. It was horrible, as though I were considering a chain of abattoirs where human beings were slaughtered for their meat.

I use Facebook. I used to think it was stupid, but they fiddled with it until it made more sense and became useful, and I began to like it. Sometimes people share things posted by prosperity preachers, and I have taken to blocking them. I don’t block the people who share, but I have blocked–if I recall correctly–Joyce Meyer, Benny Hinn, T.D. Jakes, and some others. I don’t know whether I’ve blocked Joel Osteen, but I will if I get a chance. You have to wait for someone to share something. You can’t go to a page and block it in advance, unless it’s a personal page.

My old church, Trinity in Miami Gardens, was a prosperity church. The church isn’t prosperous. They have debt they can’t pay. But they claim to teach prosperity, and it seems to be working for the pastor and his family.

This morning I thought about the way they invite Steve Munsey in and let him teach his garbage. The metaphor that came to mind was a family of wolves running a sheep farm, inviting a hyena to come in and eat the flesh of the sheep they have ripped open.

Munsey is a predator. That is my OPINION, as we lawyers like to say, not that he would sue a critic and thereby draw attention to himself. I am sure he doesn’t believe the crap he teaches. I think he knows it’s a pile of lies, and I think he made it up just to get money.

He claims that if you give a pile of money to a church or televangelist on Passover, Pentecost, or Yom Kippur, God will give you blessings listed in the Old Testament. Unfortunately, if you read the Bible for yourself, you will see that there is no connection between these blessings and Munsey’s offerings. If you wanted, you could tell people to give big offerings on Chanukkah, and then you could point to an unrelated blessing, like the one that says no weapon formed against you will prosper, and you could say the blessing comes from the offering. This is the kind of thing Munsey did. It doesn’t just happen. His lists of blessings didn’t make themselves. He had to sit down and write them out, and to me, that proves intent to deceive.

He says the Jews went to Jerusalem three times a year to give God “their best offering,” and that God sold them these blessings in return. Any Jew can tell you this is crazy. The Jews did not go to Jerusalem three times a year, and they didn’t give giant cash offerings on the specified holidays. There were times when Jewish MEN went to Jerusalem (not all Jews), and there were offerings, but they were not huge cash offerings, Gentiles were not involved, and there was no mention of special blessings given in exchange for money.

This is not really something you can argue about. It’s not a matter of interpretation. The things he teaches are demonstrably, objectively untrue. There is no possibility that they could be true.

I thought about this, and I thought about the other prosperity pimps. I thought about the things God really wants to do in his people. He wants to enter our hearts and minds, live in us, heal us of the internal damage that has been done to us, heal our bodies, give us fulfilling missions, and make us victorious in life. But if you go to a prosperity pimp, he will actually prevent God from doing those things for you!

Some megachurches have flocks made up of reasonably successful people. That is not the case with Trinity. A lot of people there are in government housing. Many have no jobs. They come from generations of poverty and idol worship. Things don’t go well for them. These are the last people on earth a man of God would want to hurt, yet the leaders of the church invite Munsey in for the specific purpose of squeezing money out of them.

That’s really something. We all forgive Robin Hood, because he stole from the rich and gave to the poor. But what can you say about wealthy people who steal from the poor AND claim to be helping them, IN God’s name?

The fact that other churches have wealthier congregations doesn’t excuse this behavior in those venues. Stealing and lying are wrong, no matter who the victim is. And the charlatans aren’t just stealing money. They are stealing peace. They are stealing faith by convincing people that God isn’t real and that all preachers are thieves. They are stealing cancer cures, deliverance from addictions, victory over terrible cycles of family dysfunction…every blessing you can name. They steal it all. Prosperous people have problems, just like everyone else. They need God just as much as the poor. So it’s not okay for Kenneth Copeland to rip off Texans who drive German cars.

Churches have become abortion mills. In the supernatural, they are littered with the bones of Christians who have been dismantled and gutted by people like Munsey, Paula White, and Benny Hinn.

It would be better to kill people physically than spiritually. It would be better to find a good Christian and cut his throat than to fill an unsaved person with so much disgust that he won’t come to the altar, or to destroy a Christian’s faith so he and his descendants live in sin and failure.

No one in the charismatic churches will speak up. We’re so brainwashed, all we can say is, “Judge not.” So when a crooked millionaire comes in and rapes a congregation over a thirty-year period, we smile and refuse to be “judgmental.” If one of these white trash jokers broke in your house and tried to take a $30 lamp, you would flip out, and you would tell everyone you know. But we have an insane notion that we can’t speak up when they are clearly robbing us of our future with Christ. That is truly amazing.

Sometimes sincere preachers slip up through weakness or ignorance. That’s understandable. But that’s not what’s happening in the money churches. Many of these people know exactly what they’re doing. The Bible commands us not to keep company with swindlers who call themselves Christians. Tell me how you can reconcile that with an ignorant unwillingness to point out sin.

At my church, the Holy Spirit talks all the time. He speaks through pastors and ministers. Sometimes he talks through people in the congregation. He doesn’t tell us we’re going to be millionaires. He brings comfort and hope of inner healing. He tells people he knows about the abuse they’ve suffered, and that he is going to undo the damage and bring them joy and recovery. He tells them they’re going to do great things for HIM, not for themselves. And these things come true.

People whose lives are full of pain and despair brighten up and come alive as they continue to attend. Shackles fall off of them. They start helping others. That’s what a church is supposed to do. We become God’s agents, and we help others join the workforce. In the process, we get blessed.

God is not behind the vultures and maggots. He is not on their side. He did not bring them to us. He did not build their giant, self-glorifying, tacky megamall churches. The outward appearance of success is not proof that God has done something. God is in the churches where love, not greed, is the primary motivation. They may be small. They may not have TBN shows. But they are producing strong Christians who will, in turn, build future generations of strong Christians.

There is no shame in calling people what they are. The apostles did it. Jesus did it. He whipped people on the temple grounds, because they used God to justify their greed. We are right–we are obligated–to shine a light on those who habitually, deliberately slice up and divide the sheep. To grin and ignore it is to trivialize the desires of God’s heart.

The Bible calls the liars “wolves” for a reason. Wolves do not take care of sheep. They kill and eat them for pleasure. It is not a flattering term, nor is it a term that reflects understanding and patience. People are literally dying for lack of a proper introduction to God, and they are also being bankrupted by idiotic offerings. Don’t hesitate to speak up, and if you know of a church where people are being healed, then speak up about that. Life is short. We shouldn’t let people die before a good word reaches them.

When the unbelieving look into our churches and see love, inner healing, outer healing, victory, and restoration, they will want what we have, and then we’ll be able to reach them. If a few crooks have to be put out, it’s a profitable trade. They can always sell cars for a living. The devil’s children are nothing if not resourceful.

Let’s quit making excuses for the wolves who feed on our bodies. It was never supposed to be like this. There is hope in God, and if you want to find it, you will have to step away from people who offer you fantasies and mirages.

Persecution Doesn’t Make me Feel Gay

Saturday, May 17th, 2014

From Pilgrims to Puppets in 400 Years

The gay marriage mess is really something. It is a wonderful example of a Biblical event occurring before our eyes. Usually, we don’t recognize these things for what they are. We attribute news stories to natural phenomena. That is a normal reaction, for people trained to think God is hibernating or something. Most American Christians think God is off somewhere paying very little attention to us, and that we will only interact with him after we die. We have been taught that the gifts of the Spirit ceased and that there are no more prophecies or miracles. We think we’re on our own. But we’re not. Blessings and curses continue to operate, and prophecy continues to unfold in front of us. If God weren’t still active, the Jews would have disappeared no later than 1950.

For a very long time, I’ve been telling people gay marriage was going to be the stick Satan used to beat Christians in America. I had no idea how right I was! I suppose the Holy Spirit showed me this truth without giving the details.

You would think there would be little relationship between the wellbeing of Christians and the right for homosexuals to marry. You would think we could coexist peacefully. I don’t have any hostility toward them, and I think most Christians feel the same way, and naively, we tend to assume they don’t feel hostility toward us. But that’s not how it works.

I would not have much of an emotional response if I learned that half of Americans wanted to have same-sex relations. For that matter, if the neighbors were having consensual sex with chickens, my natural inclination would be to care very little. Honestly, I don’t get all that agitated when other people do stupid things that ruin their lives. I suppose that’s selfishness, or maybe it’s just the realization that I can’t control anyone. But many homosexuals have a very strong, irrational hatred of God and religion, and there is a big anti-religion movement among them. They see us as the enemy. They’re not all that loud about it when they deal with us directly, but in their intramural communications, they’re more open about it.

Because we are seen as the enemy, there is no way for us to get along with these people. It’s not enough for us to put up with them, or even to allow gay marriage. We are now required to LIKE gay marriage and APPROVE of their activities and inclinations. If we say what the Bible has said for thousands of years–that homosexuality is a bad thing–they now rise up against us and try to take our jobs away and ostracize us. That is truly an amazing shift, and it happened over the span of about two years, which is way too fast for a natural event of this magnitude. It is clearly rooted in the supernatural.

The government, which is an inherently liberal and godless institution, now counsels some employees that silence is disapproval, and that it is unacceptable. How about that? If your gay coworker gets married to another man, in a ceremony featuring a cake with icing genitalia all over it, you are supposed to speak up in approval. How is that possible, for anyone whose religion bans homosexuality? There is just no way. This is a requirement that cannot be obeyed without sinning. It’s like telling Orthodox Jews they have to eat bacon at work. But Obama’s people are pushing it on us anyway, in spite of the First Amendment guarantee of religious freedom.

The government shouldn’t be able to do this, since the Constitution was written mainly to handcuff the government. They’re trying anyway. But most employers are private-sector, so they’re not bound by the First Amendment. One of these days, you may show up for your shift at the Holiday Inn or whatever, and you may be told that you’ve been fired because you didn’t go to a baby shower for a couple of lesbians.

I suppose eventually there will be a lot of legal tests to see if overweening pro-gay employment policies violate laws banning religious discrimination. My hope is that we will prevail, because failing that, there will be only two choices: sin egregiously or be fired. It would be comparable to the economic and social ostracism the Third Reich imposed on Jews.

I am not as fired up about politics as I used to be. Many Christians think the answer to the scary prospect of anti-Christian apartheid is to go to Tea Party rallies, wave signs, and vote for Christian candidates. I guess those are good things to do, but they work pretty close to the surface of the problem. We need to kill the root, and the root is not visible. It is supernatural. We should be cursing the gay movement in the name of Jesus. We should be speaking defeat and exposure to the spirits behind it. We should be speaking discernment, faith, deliverance, and contrition to homosexuals, and we should be developing the tools that are required to crush the spirits that cause people to have perverted desires in the first place.

If we turn back to God and develop supernaturally, we will have enough power to protect ourselves, and we might even be able to turn America and Israel around. If we don’t, the Tea Party can’t help us. Satan is reaching into the GOP’s leadership, gaining more control every month, and if the Tea Party relies on natural strength, it will also be subject to corruption. The human mind is not strong enough to resist it.

I don’t believe we need a giant movement. A minority backed by God will always prevail. One man prevented the rain from falling in Israel for 3 1/2 years. If we will just pick up our weapons and fight, we should be able to prevent the gay persecutors from gaining enough ground to make us truly miserable.

I don’t think it’s an exaggeration to say that these people would be happy to see us in ghettos and camps. They have no protection at all from demonic influence. Ordinary Germans, Austrians, Russians, Poles, Frenchmen, Dutchmen, and others happily turned Jews in for relocation. Your perky, witty, warmhearted gay buddy might wear a very different face in a future where he feels safe in expressing his true feelings. At that time, dark emotions he isn’t currently aware of may come to the surface. That’s how human nature works.

Phil Robertson’s story was shocking. Nothing he said about homosexuals was offensive. He simply disagreed with their preferences and choices. Yet an army of persecutors, to whom he posed no threat whatsoever, rose up and got him suspended from a job that made his secular employers a great deal of money. Thank God, startled Americans–some of whom were, themselves, gay–objected. And prayers went up all over the nation. And Phil won, in a rout. That was encouraging.

This month, two Christian brothers named Benham got the same treatment. They were supposed to host a home-flipping show on HGTV, but gay activists complained, and the show was canceled. Immediately afterward, Suntrust Banks, which supplies a big portion of the Benhams’ business, refused to work with them. Americans flipped out, and now Suntrust says the move came from a third party, not Suntrust itself, and they distanced themselves from it. The show is still dead, but at least we didn’t see a major banking corporation get away with blatant religious persecution. What a precedent that would set. The leap from that to a gay, anti-Christian Kristallnacht is not that great.

Things have changed so dramatically! Christianity and Judaism have been against sexual perversion for millennia, and it has never been controversial until now, but suddenly, common sense has been abandoned, and utterly ridiculous ideas are taught as gospel.

No one would have gone up to a rabbi in 1700 and tried to hand him nonsense about the Torah permitting gay sex as long as it wasn’t in a religious ritual, yet today you can find this pitiable lie all over the Internet. And many nominal Christians and Jews don’t even need that sophistry. They have concluded, on their own authority, that sex between two men is no different from other acts that are prohibited in the Torah, such as wearing blended fabrics. They say Jesus never mentioned homosexuality. He never mentioned pornography, kidnapping, pedophilia, arson, rape, or bestiality, either. I guess all those things should be permitted and celebrated in churches. The New Testament explicitly condemns homosexuality in more than one place. It is astounding that we are quibbling about something so obvious.

We used to think that bestiality and incestuous marriages were the pit the slippery slope led to, and we were right, but those things are trivial compared to the demonization of Christians and Jews. It’s unfortunate and tacky when your neighbor has sex with a goat, but it beats having him take away your job and render you unemployable. It beats losing your house, your possessions, your good name, and your ability to take care of your wife and kids. Those things are all on the table now. And we didn’t see it coming. Well, most of us didn’t.

There is really no way to reconcile. We can allow gay marriage and say it’s between gays and God. But we can’t participate in it or endorse it, and those things are now required. There is no way out for us. If you’re a Christian baker, and someone wants a cake with two men on top, you may be forced to bake it or go out of business. That is not something we can sit back and accept. Being actively involved in this sinful activity is not permitted by God. So we are going to have to find a way to defeat the people who want to force it on us. That’s all there is to it. And because spirits started the fight, we need the help of the greatest Spirit in order to win. Otherwise we’re taking a rubber knife to a gunfight.

If we want to beat back the persecution, we are going to have to accept the baptism with the Holy Spirit, submit to him, pray in tongues, and learn how to fight. Going to your non-charismatic church and speaking love, acceptance, and cowardly appeasement is not going to get the job done. These people do not want to be appeased. They want a world without people like you. And if you do what they want, you will no longer BE a person like you, so you can’t protect yourself by incremental surrender. Look how that worked in Israel.

I never thought this would be a problem of this scale. But it is.

Address this crisis in prayer daily. Enlist the help of the only one who can fix it. Then maybe we’ll be able to continue to live prosperous Christian lives in our own country.

Direction Over Location

Friday, May 16th, 2014

Everyone Starts in a Bad Place

I keep getting great comments on the stuff I’ve put up lately. I am very grateful. They remind me that the blog is not a waste of time, and to some degree, they provide proof of redemption. Generally, I have used my natural gifts for pointless or counterproductive pursuits, so it’s good to know that they now have a positive impact from time to time.

Redemption is a big deal. Is that obvious? I suppose it is. But sometimes we need to be reminded of the obvious, and we need to see it from a fresh perspective.

A friend of mine had a dream, and she ran it by a few Christian friends. I don’t recall all of it, but basically, the economy pooped out again, and people were going to lose their houses and live in squalor. The government offered them big lump-sum payments, to “help.” You know the government. Our “friend.”

They invited people to come discuss it, and they told them all they had to do to get the payments was to kill one person. While they were there, they saw a bunch of sickly orphan kids who were weak and spindly. I suppose they resembled kids with cerebral palsy.

Eventually, it became clear that these kids were the people who were to be killed. One per family. They would take them home and kill them, and the government would give them money and wash its hands of the matter.

The interpretation was that the government was the church, and that these kids were people who didn’t look right when they showed up. I think this applies more to the Bible Belt than to places like Miami, where virtually everyone who goes to church is tattooed or pierced or has a criminal record. I believe it applied mainly to places where successful people go to church. In places like that, people who don’t look like Christians might be viewed with less acceptance.

We have natural parts, which we can see, and we have minds and spirits, which can’t be seen. It is possible for a person to be healthy and rich in the natural world while he is starving, blind, and crippled in the invisible realm. Satan attacks us, starting before we’re born, and all of us are stunted in some way or another. Satan destroys important parts of us, like the willingness to love, the ability to express ourselves without fear or unjustified shame, the willingness to give, and so on.

I believe that if we could see our invisible parts, they might look like people with arms and legs torn off. An invisible part may be as important as, or more important than, an arm or a leg. In fact, a person who loses his legs will be okay, as long as his heart, mind, and spirit are not damaged badly.

I think these kids represent the poor in spirit. Generally, people do not come to the altar because things are going great. They come because they have been beaten to the ground, like addicts who have hit bottom. They truly are poor in spirit. We would even describe them as “dispirited” in English. And defeated people are likely to have addictions, scars, tattoos, rap sheets, really awful haircuts, and so on.

Churches in some areas are full of clean-cut, successful people who don’t want to be inconvenienced all that much by other people’s problems. It may be that God was telling my friend about this.

One of the weird things about God is that he sees the future, and he probably thinks more about the future you than the present you. You may be a pimp today, but ten years from now, you may be full of God’s faith and love. You may be running around raising the dead and healing hearts. We can’t tell who will be reformed in God’s image, but God can, and they will not always look the way we expect.

In the Bible, God compares us to lumps of clay that become finished pottery. No potter in his right mind would throw out a piece of clay because it didn’t look like a pot. You would have to be an idiot. No one expects raw clay to look like pottery. Yet it may be that we have come to expect God’s future servants to look holy and wear khakis, golf shirts from Dillard’s, and tasseled loafers. When you want to build something, it’s natural to look for promising raw material. But in the Bible, “natural” is a dirty word.

God shops at the dump and the scrap yard, because there is no place else where he can shop. Everyone, without exception, is messed up before God enters the picture. Redemption is not a favor he offers a few people here and there. It is a universal necessity. Everyone has to change, with God’s help. God never grabs someone out of the scrap pile and says, “Wow, this one is perfect.”

We have to be careful about obsessing on blessings. If you go to a non-charismatic church, you will be taught that God will do almost nothing for you, and that’s evil, but if you go to a charismatic church and watch TBN, you will probably be taught that our mission here on earth is to get God to do things for us. That’s evil, too. He will certainly do things for us, but the central mission is to love him as a person (not a concept) and do his will. This is what Jesus was talking about when he said we had to seek God’s kingdom and righteousness first.

God wants more children, and the raw material is out there. We can’t flood our churches with unreprentant criminals and turn a blind eye to iniquity, but a church should not be like a fancy living room where all the furniture is covered with disgusting plastic. It can’t be a museum, if it is to function. So we have to be open to new people, and we have to get our hands a little dirty.

The people in the dream were killing children in order to preserve their own comfort. This is what we do when we worry too much about our own blessings. Christianity is supposed to spread, like a virus. You can’t just hunker down in your mansion and wait for a pleasant death. You have to bear fruit. If you want redemption for yourself, you will have to help others get it. Otherwise you become spiritually constipated and produce little or nothing.

I am glad I’m contributing a little these days. A surprising number of people are at my church now because I brought them or I brought the people who brought them. Thank God for that. Every one of them is important. I should have been doing this 30 years ago. How many did I allow to fail?

A pimp who will listen to the Holy Spirit is more promising than a bishop who won’t. We are going to be surprised at the nature of the people who come in and advance the kingdom, and we shouldn’t be jealous of them or try to stay positioned above them. We have been warned, so we have no excuse.

Quite honestly, I do not like tattoos. Satan has always loved them, and they were banned by Jewish law. They are like signs saying, “Do not hire me; I want to go on welfare or become a career criminal.” No one should get tattooed, unless the Holy Spirit gives them an order on engraved stationery. But once you have a tattoo, you have it, and God still wants you. You don’t have to get it burned off before you can come to church. Everyone has something like a tattoo, whether you can see it or not. Whether it’s physical or invisible.

When we start living by the Spirit, things are going to get pretty weird, so we might as well brace for it.

New Arrival

Wednesday, May 14th, 2014

Time to Sign Him up for the NRA

My second godchild arrived on Monday. I was cleared for a hospital visit yesterday, so I grabbed my old SLR and tried to get it to function. On the long drive, I stopped by Bass Pro and picked up some essentials, including a camouflage onesie.

I guess I should start with a photo of him with his mom. The larger and more relieved-looking person in this photo is my friend Freddly. She was an armorbearer at Trinity Church, but like me, she realized Trinity was messed up, and she left. Unlike me, she took a long time to find a new church. One day she texted me asking for prayer, and I told her about New Dawn Ministries. She came by for a service, and it had a big effect on her. Unfortunately, while God dealt with her, she did not continue to attend, and by the time she came back, the young gentleman to her right was on the way. I am not cleared to post photos of the father yet.

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The boy’s name is Noah. It was originally Abigail. Then they got a more conclusive sonogram.

He has a full head of hair, and he passed his hearing test. That’s about all I know at the moment. When I figured out how to turn the flash off, the photos got better.

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At Bass Pro, I also picked up a pink camo T-shirt for my goddaughter, Gabriella.

I don’t know when Noah will be venturing out in a bag or whatever it is they put babies in now. Couple of weeks I guess. I told Freddly we needed to start shopping for a pistol for him. She’s pretty excited about that.

So far the week has been interesting.

First, Heal the Parts You Can’t See

Monday, May 12th, 2014

The Natural is Born in the Supernatural

Satan pushes people off balance. If you want to please God by being nice, Satan helps you to be TOO nice, and the first thing you know, you’re endorsing homosexuality and every other iniquity that comes in the church door. If you want to please God by warning people about sin, Satan helps you to become so annoyed and frustrated that all you can think about is how much Christians sin, and it becomes impossible for people to perceive God’s love in you, because you’re so crabby.

My old church went overboard on “nice,” although they weren’t very nice to the poor or to the people who worked in the church for nothing. They put on a smiley face and refused to say anything bad about anything. Their excuse was that getting sinful people to church was worth any sacrifice. That’s so crazy. If you refuse to correct people, they don’t grow, and the first thing you know, God’s presence has left your church, and he has started drawing people to other ministries.

That’s exactly what happened to my old church. People leave all the time, and they all say the same thing. God’s presence is gone. I still can’t believe they put Luther Campbell in a place of honor and made us treat him like a VIP. That’s like something out of a Mel Brooks movie. It was right to speak up about it.

On the other hand, I have worried about becoming too enthusiastic about correction.

On the two occasions when Jesus came to me, what I perceived was not correction. I would say that what I perceived was the presence of a completely correct personality. Love flowed from him like a warm breeze. I felt complete acceptance. As long as he was there, I knew my future was assured. He was going to take care of me. I was in the shelter of his arms. It’s tough to make people understand his nature by hollering about their sins. And yet exposing and defeating iniquity is central to his mission. If we are to become like the warm, loving, reassuring being that came to me, criticism has to be part of the process.

Psalm 32 says:

When I kept silent, my bones grew old
Through my groaning all the day long.
For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me;
My vitality was turned into the drought of summer. Selah
I acknowledged my sin to You,
And my iniquity I have not hidden.
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,”
And You forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah

For this cause everyone who is godly shall pray to You
In a time when You may be found;
Surely in a flood of great waters
They shall not come near him.
You are my hiding place;
You shall preserve me from trouble;
You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.

You get deliverance and restoration when you confess. Confession is self-criticism. There is no way around that. Ezekiel says:

Moreover He said to me: “Son of man, receive into your heart all My words that I speak to you, and hear with your ears. And go, get to the captives, to the children of your people, and speak to them and tell them, ‘Thus says the Lord God,’ whether they hear, or whether they refuse.”

Also:

“Son of man, I have made you a watchman for the house of Israel; therefore hear a word from My mouth, and give them warning from Me: When I say to the wicked, ‘You shall surely die,’ and you give him no warning, nor speak to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life, that same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood I will require at your hand.

Different people, independently, speaking prophetically, have told me I am a watchman in my church. That means two things. First, I see things before everyone else. I go through trials before the rest of the church, and I receive blessings before they do. Second, I have to speak up when there is a threat. So inevitably, criticism is part of my life.

Love and criticism are inextricably entwined. Our iniquities grieve the Holy Spirit, who is the only person who can make us like God. If we love God and people correctly, we do it not just with our own love, but with the love of the Holy Spirit. So sin and iniquity matter. They can block the Holy Spirit, and by doing so, they can prevent us from loving. Suppress iniquity, and you promote all the good qualities of God, including love. You promote the gifts (1 Corinthians 12) and fruit (Galatians 5) of the Spirit. This is the primary thing God wants to do in you. Salvation is just fertilization of a crude egg. The development that follows is also important.

You don’t have to be perfect to be a good Christian and live in power and virtue. But if you are an unrepentant idiot and you habitually do things your own way, you are going to have a hard time in this life, and you will live in defeat, unless God exempts you for some reason of his own. Sometimes God gives great power and help to someone who is still in sin, but it’s not something you should count on. To do so is to cheat yourself of the biggest benefit you can experience in a flesh body.

For a long time, I’ve been disgusted by the prosperity and self-help preachers. On Facebook, I block people like Benny Hinn, T.D. Jakes, Paula White, Kenneth Copeland, and Joel Osteen. The older I get, the more I realize God is in this. It’s not self-righteousness. It is the Holy Spirit, telling me to avoid a path that leads to destruction.

If you had never heard of Jesus, and you walked into a megachurch today, what conclusion would you draw? Here are some of the top answers.

1. God wants you to have a lot of money.
2. God wants you to live in perfect health.
3. God wants you to be successful in everything you yourself choose to do.

These goals are distortions and abridgments of what God really wants. God wants us to do well and to be healthy, but to get to that state, we have to focus on other things.

Every one of us is attacked by the enemy. It starts before we are born. Some are spoiled, so they become aggressive, unsympathetic, egotistical, and self-confident (which is a fault). Some are abused, so they become afraid to love. They may become painfully shy, which is a very serious, crippling condition. They may become bitter. They may become convinced they can never succeed at anything. Even after their abusers die, they may internalize them and run themselves down in a persistent inner dialogue that can’t be stopped. And Satan sends demons to all of us–ALL of us–to foster and perpetuate all of these problems.

Without the Holy Spirit, even if we are saved, we have crippled minds and hearts. We may not know it, because we get used to our conditions. But it’s true. We don’t love very well. We lack the fruit of the Spirit.

The inner man has parts, just as the outer man has arms and legs, and if we could see our inner selves, we would see bodies with limbs torn off and eyes gouged out. Parts of us that God intended to function well are either damaged or gone. It’s very serious. If your leg came off, you’d be hysterical, but because you can’t see a mental part or a part of the heart, we don’t get all that upset about our inner damage.

The main thing God wants to do with you, after saving you from hell, is to put heaven inside you. He wants you to love without fear. He wants you to be free from inhibition and anxiety when you do the things he designed you to do. He wants you to be able to stop sinning, even in your heart. When the damage is undone and the torn parts are regrown, you can be like the being that came to me on those two occasions. You can radiate love. You can be free of worry and fear. You can be successful at what you do. You can be confident that every situation will have a good outcome, because that is what God planned.

The blessing-centered preachers don’t care at all about that. They think it’s more important to get your money, or to restore your misguided self-confidence, than to remodel your interior and make it a fit home for the most powerful, loving being in the universe.

For that reason, it is correct to criticize them. It’s beyond correct. It’s crucial. There is no way for us to succeed in God’s kingdom without demolishing their sick doctrines.

In my church, the pastor (and others) get prophetic words all the time. When God speaks, he usually doesn’t say something like, “You’re going to be a millionaire this time next year,” which is the kind of BS you will hear in other churches. He almost always tells people they are going to be healed inside. He says he loves them and that he has not forgotten them. He tells them they have a future in him.

This is what church is supposed to be about. God loves us. He burns with a desire to restore us and give us victory. He has to do it on his own terms, but he wants to do it. When someone wants to do a thing, we say he is “dying” to do it. That’s a figure of speech, but God literally died so he could restore us.

People tell me how nice Joel Osteen is, and how good he makes them feel. They put Paula White quotations of Facebook, thinking they’re helpful. The problem is this: when you need milk, a pacifier will starve you to death. We are getting a pacifier from the TBN preachers. The breast can’t find a way in when the pacifier is in the way. So the “love” of the blind preachers is really hate. It doesn’t just fail to help. It kills. They are not helping. They are ENABLING. And Christians who think everyone who is nice is serving God can’t tell the difference.

Never lose focus on the real goal. You are supposed to communicate with God daily. You are supposed to admit your faults and get his help in ridding yourself of them. You are supposed to covet God’s virtues and work to make them part of you, through his own power, not your useless effort. You are supposed to become like your father. Forget about getting rich. Put the kingdom first, and remember that it is inside you, not in your bank account.

If we can get a grip on this, we will see real love in the church, and we will truly know God. Then we’ll see power and help.

What You Speak and Believe Matters More Than What You Do

Thursday, May 8th, 2014

Put the Horse Before the Cart and Move

Felt like blogging some more.

I love music, but I had some problems with my left hand. The knuckles on three fingers swelled up. I think I got this problem because I was using an online guitar lesson program intended to strengthen my hands. It was full of harsh, repetitive movements done to exhaustion.

I quit playing the guitar and pretty much forgot about performing, shifting instead to writing music. That’s rewarding, and it’s more important than playing, but playing is not something to be discarded lightly.

A few months back, as is often the case, my pastor got a word that he was supposed to pray for physical healing, and I went up. After the service, my hand felt better. I resumed practice. Now I’m playing the banjo, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, mandolin, piano, lap steel, and dobro.

I’ve put the mandolin and electric guitar on the back burner. I focus mainly on the piano and slide guitars, and I keep up with the banjo, because practicing everything I know only takes around 20 minutes, and it appears that practicing my first instrument improves my ability to remember and play pieces on other instruments.

The mandolin is not a big priority, but I did hear a piece in my head, so I wrote it down in Finale, and I put up a Youtube in which the computer plays it. I should record a version using an actual mandolin, but I haven’t done that.

I have had to go for prayer again, and I have found that stretching and a thing called “friction massage” protect my left hand, but basically, I am healed. It’s a big blessing. If I had to pick one thing I wanted to do more than anything else, it would be music. And God tells us he will give us the desires of our hearts (Psalm 37:4).

You may not believe it, but you can bless yourself with added ability. One day I got the idea of speaking increased talent to myself, and increased strength, agility, and endurance to my hands. When I sat down to practice the piano, I played a boogie woogie bass line I wrote, and suddenly my hand just took off. I was flying. And I didn’t get tired. The rest of me sat still and watched while my left hand kept going and going and going.

The Old Testament is full of this kind of thing. They blessed and cursed all the time, and they expected it to work. The entire Arab/Jewish situation is based on a few things Isaac said to Jacob and Esau before he died. Over a billion people are living in circumstances he spoke into existence. It shouldn’t surprise us that we have power over ourselves and the little things we see around us.

I got the idea of learning to play dobro from my desire to get used to using fingerpicks on the guitar. Dobro players use the same picks banjo players use, and I’m a banjo player. I figured I would get going on the dobro, and that would get me used to playing six strings instead of the four and change the banjo provides. But it seems like the dobro is turning out to be a goal in and of itself. The various types of slide guitars can do things a fretted guitar can’t.

The best instructional material I’ve found (I bought several things) is a DVD set by a player named Rob Ickes. You can find it at Amazon. I can’t find any Rob Ickes videos I like, so here is Jerry Douglas playing “The Boxer.”

I thought the lap steel would be included, sort of, in learning the dobro. It looked so similar. I shopped around and ordered one. I almost got a used one; some of the best can be picked up for $300. But I heard bad things about the pickups, so I decided to get a new Eastwood with a humbucker. It’s very nice. Totally Chinese, but the workmanship is as good as a Gibson guitar, and the pickup has a sweet, warm sound.

It turns out the lap steel, at least for me, is considerably harder than the dobro. To play dobro, you use a steel bar with a nice handle carved into it. The lap steel is played with a round cylinder of metal with a hemispherical end, and it’s hard to hold onto. You have to master vibrato and string-muting in order to play the lap steel, to a much greater degree than is necessary than the dobro. So the dobro is going very well, and the lap steel is taking more time.

Here’s a guy who inspired me to take up the lap steel. His name is Doug Beaumier. He’s playing an old Gibson Century 6 guitar. His work shows what can be done, if you have the skill.

Here’s another exceptional player, Bishop R.P. Hall.

I don’t know what kind of future I have with the lap steel, but it’s nice to have good amps ready to use. My latest amp is perfect for the job, and it also works with the dobro.

The dobro I bought is a Gretsch. I didn’t want to invest heavily in a new fling, so I went Chinese. I can’t complain. It’s an excellent instrument. The fit and finish are just about perfect, the materials appear to be top drawer, and it sounds great. It has a Fishman pickup installed (these run over $150 all by themselves), and I got the guitar and pickup for $420. My amp is perfect for it. It doesn’t sound like an electric guitar. It sounds exactly the same way it does with the amp turned off, only louder.

You may have dreams you’ve written off. They may not seem important to you. What you may not know is that God gives people dreams, and the ones you dropped may be very important to him. It depends on what they are, of course. If you’ve dreamed of opening a strip club, it’s not God’s idea. But God does have a mission for you, and he will give you desires that are compatible with that mission. God is a good father and a good boss; he does not want you to spend your life doing things that aren’t rewarding.

If you can develop closeness with God, you can jump-start your God-given dreams. You may have blown it in the past, but God is like GPS: he re-routes. Whatever you can get from God at this stage of your life will be far better than anything you will receive if you do it on your own.

Pray in tongues. Fight the spirits that try to control you through your flesh. Learn to bless and curse. Dedicate yourself to God’s purpose. Keep at it consistently, asking for prayer when needed, and things will start to blossom. And it will never stop.

This is what being seated in high places with Christ means. We were created to live in authority, not defeat. We aren’t supposed to be proud about it, but it is our intended destiny, and there is nothing wrong with seeking it.

It’s working for me, and God didn’t create this scheme because of one person’s needs. Everyone is eligible.

Give it a try and see it work.

Arm Yourself

Monday, May 5th, 2014

Your Enemies are Already Armed

I keep learning interesting things about the way creation works, so I am here to report.

Things keep getting better for me. My second godchild is due next month. I am practicing several musical instruments every day. I’m learning to play pieces I wrote. A number of problems are fading out of my life.

The house my sister lived in is finally vacant. Her name is not on the title, and I am getting it repaired. It was such a mess, it was hard to figure out what to fix first.

The roof was shot due to lack of maintenance, so water was leaking in, and when you have leaks, you can’t fix the walls, because the water will mess them up again. The plumbing had at least two major leaks in it, but the house was so full of rat urine and manure, plus insects, that I didn’t think a plumber would be willing to go under the floor until the other problems were fixed. The interior walls were coated with black mold, and I didn’t want to send anyone to work in that environment until it was cleaned out.

I eventually decided to start with a termite tent and follow up with a mold team and a roofer. That was after paying a thousand dollars to get abandoned junk hauled to the dump. Every single interior wall had to be removed, including ceilings. The floors and subfloors had to come out, too. The mold people had to cease work because the floors were shaky, so we put a new subfloor in (including shoring up rotten joists) and sent them back in.

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This change has been a tremendous relief to me. My father is not happy about it, though. All I can think about is the stress of waiting to get in there and fix it, and I’m thrilled that it’s finally happening. It’s wonderful to be able to go in there without a mask to keep the microbes and mold out, and I like not having to shower after I leave. He thinks about the unnecessary destruction and the waste that occured in the past, so it’s hard for him to be happy about what’s happening in the present and future.

Christianity is about the present and future, and that makes sense, because we live in the present, and we are GOING to live in the future. We can dwell on the past in our hearts and minds, but we can’t go there and fix it.

I am getting a better understanding of God’s grace. I will try to pass it on.

“Grace” does not mean patience or the ability to trust God while you live in defeat. It doesn’t mean a state in which you are safe from judgment. Grace means anything God does for you, which you don’t deserve. If God regrows your severed leg, it’s grace. Manna was grace. Casting out demons is done by grace.

“Falling from grace” does not mean sinning. Jimmy Swaggart didn’t “fall from grace” when he sinned with a prostitute. Falling from grace means choosing to do things in your own strength, rather than relying on God’s undeserved help. When you choose to do it on your own, God stops helping you, so the grace is gone. You have fallen from grace and into pride. When you try to do things for yourself, it’s pride.

Adam had everything handed to him. I’m sure he had to get up every morning and do things, but he did not work hard, and he had no problems. Hard work came after he fell from grace. It was a curse. Instead of picking food from trees, he had to dig in the ground like an animal, every day. And the food he got could not be compared to the food God had given him in the beginning.

Adam and Eve sinned, not by trying to fight God, but by trying to help him. Satan said the fruit would make them wise, and it seemed obvious to them that they would be better at what they did if they were wise, so they ate.

God did not need their wisdom. He had his own plan. He did not want them interfering. But like Moses striking the rock at Meribah (instead of speaking to it), they chose carnal action over God’s help, and they were barred from their intended destiny.

The church fell from grace in the early years A.D. Jesus taught the disciples about grace, but eventually, pride and self-help worked their way into the church. Miracles ceased. Tongues ceased. Prophecy ceased. These things were still available, but we turned from them. We started relying on hard work. We were taught that poverty and disease were normal, and even that they were gifts from God. We brought back the pagan “gods,” called them by new names, and worshiped them as saints. And for maybe eighteen hundred years, the church has been a joke, like the blinded Samson, going in circles and producing nothing of value.

God has given us a lot of tools that connect us to his power. The old church used them, but they fell into disrepute. Effort and suffering were celebrated. God’s help was criticized as “cheap.” God wanted virtuous people who earned their blessings! That was what we were taught. Of course, if you earn your blessings, God owes you, and you should not thank him, because he is just paying a bill. He is no better than a man who sends a monthly check to Mastercard. Is that something to cheer about? Are we really supposed to praise God because…he reluctantly gives us what he owes us? That’s ridiculous. We praise him because he gives us what he, himself, deserves. We are never good while we are on this earth, but he is eager to treat us as though we were, as long as we repent, submit, and do things his way.

Over and over, the Bible calls us “heirs.” Heirs do not earn. But it says, “The WAGES of sin is death.”

We have the power to bless and curse, and to declare things into existence. It took me a long time to accept that, because the prosperity preachers love this stuff. They use it for stupid ends. They tell everyone they’re going to be millionaires, and they say their churches will be huge and rich. They rarely mention love or helping the needy. They don’t even talk that much about evangelism. They are not interested in bearing fruit. They just want to fatten up the barren tree until it becomes grotesque.

Jesus spoke to a tree, and it dried up within a day. He spoke to devils, and they had to leave. He spoke to limbs, and they grew back. We have the same right to speak things into existence, and to dominate the fallen spirits. These days, I do these things.

One of the curses Satan sent me was the curse of being bullied and manipulated. When I was a kid, my mother and I were abused. We were always shouted down and forced to serve the selfish. Later on, I was abused by teachers, friends, love interests, and employers. I can’t tell you how many pushy, overbearing people have entered my life. Sometimes they were obviously hostile, so I felt no remorse about fighting them, but the most effective ones did things for me and made me feel that it would be wrong to reject them. These days, I speak defeat to the spirits that run these people, and then I speak defeat to the people themselves. It works. I have had problems with an idiot in the morning, spoken defeat to them, and then seen them crumble in the afternoon. You really have to see it to understand how wonderful it is.

You can speak healing to your heart, mind, and body. You can speak the fruit and the gifts of the Spirit to yourself. So now I don’t just ask for things. I speak defeat and victory, and the results follow. The Bible says, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.” It’s true. God spoke the world into existence, and he lives in us.

I am careful not to sit around mimicking the TBN preachers. I don’t say, “I speak a new jet helicopter to myself. I speak a Rolls Royce with Clemson’s colors on it to myself.” I try to use wisdom and discernment.

In order to make this work, you need faith, and you can get it by daily prayer in tongues. God may drop faith on you without prayer in tongues, simply to get the job done, but you should not count on it.

I do these things daily, because as far as I can tell, that’s the best way. It’s like manna. You can’t rest on last week’s dose. The enemy curses you every day, so you should fight every day. If you learn to live this way, you can’t stop, because as soon as you do, there is a backlash effect. You have to keep going forward.

God created us in order to REPRODUCE. Does God sit around asking for things all day? No. He DECLARES. He BLESSES. He CURSES. We are supposed to be like our parent, so we are also entitled to do these things. It is part of our purpose.

I have no remorse about speaking defeat to people. Most people serve the devil. To let their aggression succeed is to give him the victory. I speak God’s revelation, faith and contrition to them, too, so hopefully they will change course, but regardless, I am not going to be their diaper or punching bag.

I’ve been criticized. People have said this isn’t a loving Christian approach. Well, they’re wrong. I can’t help it if they want to dwell in ignorance and confuse Jesus with Stuart Smalley. Jesus has killed a lot of people, and the Bible says he will kill many more. He is the one who filled hell. He isn’t winnie the Pooh. He is love, but he is also perfect justice. I am not going to latch onto the easy part of Christianity and ignore the obligation to be hard when God requires it.

I have gotten a fresh revelation of the importance of cutting pushy, selfish people out of my life. I have cut off dozens of people in the past, with little or no warning, so I feel good about that, but some people get through the lines. Some genuinely like me yet remaind fundamentally selfish and poisonous. They do things for me. They make me feel indebted (which is something NO REAL FRIEND EVER DOES). Over the last month or so, I’ve taken a much harder line against them. I do not need high blood pressure. I do not need belittlement or discouragement from people who have no respect for my age, intelligence, character, or education. I don’t puff myself up over people, but if you have a two-year degree or no degree at all, and you can’t begin to match my accomplishments, and you’re talking down to me, you need to put a sock in it and get real. I don’t go up to my pastor, who has spent many years serving God, and try to make him feel guilty, dumb, unsuccessful, or insignificant. I see no reason to let others treat me that way.

I need to try to allow more good people into my life, but it’s even more important to increase my efforts to expel the parasites. They keep good people away from me, and they will be replaced by their betters. I’ve done a pretty good job of spraying the weeds, but God has shown me that I need to do more. I am way too tolerant of leeches and ticks.

I hope this information will be helpful to people. I present it as a witness. I have seen it work in my life, so I have no qualms about recommending it.